[comicgeek007]

Forget 'Oh, this stuff just makes me more manic more often', but that plus zoloft can't even seem to keep me out of depression not caused by outside stuff.

It's like, they have ONE job to do, and they're doing a damn good job screwing it up!

I don't even know what my emotions are doing right now. I keep bursting into tears and hating myself. I've completely lost my appetite, I had to force myself to eat and even then the dang fitness app on my phone keeps telling me it's not enough. I don't think I really care, though.

I'm in a surprising amount of pain from my manic-induced exercise binge two days ago, but I feel like I deserve it. I deserve it for telling my best friend I'd never dream of making myself throw up to get rid of the food I'd binged on right after actually doing it. I can't think of anything else off the top of my head, but I'm sure there're a million reasons why I deserve to feel like ****.

I suck at giving advice but continue to try to do so anyway. There! There's another reason.

There are only two reasons I didn't hurt myself today. One is that I really don't need more scars. The other was I realized I would be late for a chemistry exam if I did. I settled for cutting out the two warts on my hand because I was fed up with a million other treatments failing. I wish you could just cut out bipolar. Just suck it up and endure a bit of pain for a moment, then it's gone.

[Confusedinomicon]

I don't think Seroquel should do that. I always thought it increased appetite and made people sluggish. (I get a 2-3 hour haze from waking up on it and it does put me to sleep.)

Are you able to see a therapist?

[hamster-bamster]

I think you need to be evaluated for a potential eating diisorder.

[comicgeek007]

Originally Posted by Confusedinomicon

I don't think Seroquel should do that. I always thought it increased appetite and made people sluggish. (I get a 2-3 hour haze from waking up on it and it does put me to sleep.)

Are you able to see a therapist?

that's what it did at first, now I'm just always nauseous with no appetite. Or maybe nausea and hunger have become one and the same? This shouldn't be. I'm not going back to the hospital to change meds again. I was just there and this all is total bs. I'd sooner go off these stupid chemicals than go back, especially so soon.

And yeah, I have an apt Thursday. Fun fun fun.

[Confusedinomicon]

Why don't you call your pdoc and ask about reducing your seroquel dose? You may be taking too much and it could be making you feel sick.

You could probably ask your therapist about it, too.

It is not uncommon for a small percentage of patients to experience an opposite effect with some medications.

Bring it to the attention of your P-Doc, and y'all can keep on trying others until you find the one that results in the desired effect.

[comicgeek007]

Just told T these meds aren't doing what they're supposed to. She's talking to my pdoc since I don't have have his contact info.

Hamster: I've been keeping a journal for T so I guess whatever she thinks about all this will go.

[comicgeek007]

RAUUURGH! I want to not me so depressed right now, is that too much to freaking ask?!?! I want to be able to actually finish this semester like everyone else and not have to go back and finish everything up the beginning of next semester (again)!

My meds are sure as hell not helping me in the slightest. I was ready to accept that I would just be more likely to be really hyper and manic if that meant I wasn't gonna have horrible depression dips! Now I just wanna quit taking them because this whole mess is just utter BS!

I don't want to have to go back to the hospital down here and have to go through the whole strip search and not get to have any visitors ever. I can't do that again! They're gonna send me to long-term since I've already been once before and I can't get locked up in the middle of nowhere with no family to help me.

The GD appetite from hell is back again but I just don't want to eat any more than normal! I keep having urges to binge again and it's getting harder and harder to resist that and a stream of other self-destructive urges.

Originally Posted by comicgeek007

RAUUURGH! I want to not me so depressed right now, is that too much to freaking ask?!?! I want to be able to actually finish this semester like everyone else and not have to go back and finish everything up the beginning of next semester (again)!

My meds are sure as hell not helping me in the slightest. I was ready to accept that I would just be more likely to be really hyper and manic if that meant I wasn't gonna have horrible depression dips! Now I just wanna quit taking them because this whole mess is just utter BS!

I don't want to have to go back to the hospital down here and have to go through the whole strip search and not get to have any visitors ever. I can't do that again! They're gonna send me to long-term since I've already been once before and I can't get locked up in the middle of nowhere with no family to help me.

The GD appetite from hell is back again but I just don't want to eat any more than normal! I keep having urges to binge again and it's getting harder and harder to resist that and a stream of other self-destructive urges.

I know how u feel bout hospitals. Where I'm at the actual hospital was okay but their warehouse I call it was awful. Anyway try some breathing exercises. I know it may seem...well corny but they really do help...give it a try at least. You can go to YouTube they have some on there.

I hope that I was helpful. BTW, how many mgs of seroquel are u on?

[~Christina]

First you should have the number of your psychiatrist.
Just because you need a medication change doesn't me you have to be inpatient to do so.

You up and down eating issues need to be addressed, it could just be a side effect of your medications.

There are so many different medications that can help balance you out, Don't lose hope.

Meanwhile try to do some yoga, meditation,breathing exercises to help calm your body down.

Please do get in touch with your Doctor.