[faerie_moon_x]

It seems like a long time since she was here last. Has anyone heard from her? I hope she is okay.

[BlueInanna]

I miss her too, I hope she is ok and will come back to us soon.

Love you Anika!

[Confusedinomicon]

Yeah!

I miss her posts too.<3

and her!

[Speed3]

I think her last post was about her sister being in the hospital. Her sister had beaten Cancer once and she was very concerned about her.

She was asking all of us to send prayers and healing thoughts.

I hope everything is ok.

[faerie_moon_x]

Yes, I remember that. It makes me worried that she is quiet now, with no update, so I know that some people say "no news is good news," but I tend to be the oposite when it comes to things like that. I hope she's okay and her sister is okay. It's a scary time.

[bluemountains]

I miss her, too!

[~Christina]

Missing her also. I think she probably has an overflowing plate right now.

Anika

[Trippin2.0]

I see her! I SEE HER!
She just posted in that tattoo thread!

[Anika.]

Aww I love you guys.
No news, not good news in this case. My sister has been in hospital a few times in the last few weeks, more tests..no answers. You guys probably remember that my sisters mother in law passed away from hep c before christmas. They are now testing my sister for that as well she lived with them for many years and so I guess that is a possibility. She looks extremely tired and worn thin, but trying to keep a posiitive attitide.

Other than that which addmitidly I am not handling well, yes my plate is overfull. I have a mid foot and high ankle sprain. A normal sprain can heal quicker a high ankle sprain not so much. My tibula and fibula have gapped apart. I was told no yoga for a few months, so no training in april either. Also have to find a new lex taxing yoga when I return as I have basically terrible knees, they are trying to manipulate them back to a normal position... trust me that feels quite gross, not painful just shudder.... So trying to find ways to cope with the stress without my number one tool. And learning how to take it easy as I am supposed to be off my feet. I hate that. They got it held together pretty good so walking feels crappy anyways. But yes I have still been working. But I cannot not do anything.

In other news my oldest son got himself into a heap of trouble which could have been a lot more serious. He has never been in trouble up to this point and I guess it is expected that teens will make some not so great decisions. So I have been trying to work with him on making goals, building better self esteem and confidence. He chose and started Tae Kwon Do. He came home with his first out of class assingments from there yesterday, assigment is on confidence. And the other part is on home, school, family, and self respect and responsability. He actually seems very excited about this and concerned about the direction he was starting to head down. I hope that he does have to learn the very hard way. I really hope this will have a positive impact for him.

Work has been very busy but we will be going into off season next week and it will slow down. I had to call in sick today. I am feeling really ill and just run down, Could barely get out of bed and head is pounding, just feel weak. .. We have had dentist, physio, kids activities, sister, easter, bf off work for workers comp injury..we had physio together haha. ( he returned today), dr.app't, birthdays etc all in the last two weeks. This weekend is bf's close cousins wedding, so that is about an 8 hour drive there .. this weekend. And then next is taking kids other direction 8 hours to an event we bought them tickets to before all the seams came apart.

I have one good peice of news. You guys know that I have been considering breast augmentation for a long time. I have worked on my self esteem a lot but that one peice of feeling unwomanly and misshaped has been a sore spot. I had made an appointment a few months back for a consult. That was yesterday. I feel very certain now and we scheduled the date. I choose the right shape and fit, proportionate for someone my size and age, quite natural looking . The 3d imaging they use was really neat and so helpful, yet strange and awkward. And I actually felt happy and excited. And nervous yes. But much less so. As with that quitting smoking is in the agenda...me ...quit...I am going to give my 100% best effort. With my sister it is just the right choice that I cannot ignore.

So that is what is going on for now. I have really been trying to decide what I want and where to go from here. My job is much to physically demanding for my health. And I feel no sense of meaning there. I have opportunity to make a decision. I can save money for training or whatever may be. I am not financially locked down with any debt as with no debt I have no credit as well. But thats ok, but thinking about the future I need a plan. The hard part is knowing what to do and believing I can.

Hehe sorry you asked? Kind of an ear full, sorry guys. I love you guys so much and miss you too. I see I have some pms to reply to and will. I hope you are all hanging in there as well. I'll try to catch up on the threads a bit.

Thank you for this dear DH! and keeping me in your thoughts you guys. Been thinking of yous too.

[Trippin2.0]

First things first.

A BOOB JOB! A BOOB JOB! I AM SO FREAKING JEALOUS!!!! see? green with envy!

Now that I got that out the wayyy ....
Wow you really have been pulled through the ringer and then some

I will continue to keep your sister in my prayers, and I do hope your foot heals nicely (but you gotta take it easy ok lady?)
So glad your son is embracing a positive path and recognizing the fact that he's making better decisions.

I do so wish I could throw your plate in the dishwasher so that you can catch a break

Its really good to hear from you sis, thanks for making time to check in with us

[Anika.]

Aw Trippin I know. You will get there. It has taken me nearly 7 years or so to get there both financially and in the head space. I have done so much reasearch and back and forth on the issue.

I hope my son takes this as a time for some inner work. Wow it really is hard watching our kids grow up. I am not ready for teens but boy I better get ready since my daughter enter highschool next year and my youngest the year after her. I try to have faith that I can handle it and that they can handle it too but it's definitely hard.

Now I have to find something for us all to wear to a wedding. Hehe might make this part of my sons consequenses he said he is going to do a 21 day yoga challenge with me after I heal up a bit. So I will take it easy because I cant wait for that, I think it will be fun for us both. He found a magazine that is just that a 21 day challenge.

[Trippin2.0]

I think its a beautiful thing, you and your son bonding over yoga Jordan and I dont have any activities in common as of yet. Mostly because she's so shy its maddening, and I'm into things like modern dance... Oh well, hopefully we will find common ground 1 of these days.

I'm scared shitless of the teen years (probaby because I was a horrid one myself), so I don't envy you on that front 1 bit

I vote that your son be responsible for wedding attire!

[BlueInanna]

Thank you for the update!!

Please no need to pm me back right away, I'm good with this update and know how overwhelm feels

Sorry it's so much going on all at once. I've been thinking about you and your sister a lot wishing things will get better.

I sure relate about the teen years, not as fun as the toddler years lol. But your son sounds so sweet actually, and willing to do things to fix his actions. That's amazing, you're an amazing mother, lady, friend. Hope you have some fun at the wedding, hopefully will be a lovely scenic road trip too

Oh hey - I'm on day 2 no smoking - YES we can do this!! (I hope)

[faerie_moon_x]

Thanks for the update.

I will keep your sister in my thoughts as well.

You have so much going on! Tae Kwon Do will be great for your son. I used to take Tae Kwon Do myself and respect and confidance wtih humility was a big theme there. The school was actually owned by a man from Korea, and his teacher still lived in Korea. He came to our school once for a testing. It was awesome. But the main instructor was a guy from California who had learned Tae Kwon Do during the Korean war. He was great. I have nothing but great things to say about that martial art.

I'm sorry you're hurt. That's not good. I hope you're back to your yoga again soon.

Oh, and a boob job, huh? Well, I have the oposite issue. I would loan you and Trippin some of my extra if you guys could loan me some of your thinness. Sounds like a fair trade.

And I support you quitting smoking 100%, you and Blue (and Trippin if she would jump in on that.) I want my friends to be around healthy as long as possible.

[~Christina]

It's so nice to see all my Girls back around

[Victoria'smom]

I'm sorry you have so much going on but I'm glad to hear the good news too.