[ChaoticSymphony]

I think I may of been hypomanic for the past few months. Idk anymore but I know I have done and said some pretty stupid stuff. Cheating on hubby emotionally with plans of leaving him and moving to another country to move in with a man??? Today I have zero feelings for this other man. I don't understand why I would even consider doing this. Has anyone ever been in this situation? Drinking has gone up more too as well as chain smoking and online gambling. It's dif this last time because usually I am so extroverted. I sat in my home this whole time and didn't answer any phone calls for as long as I could before ppl worried. It interfered with my gambling. At one point everything felt unreal. Like I wasn't sure of anything anymore. Like if that chair was really there and did it have the same significance to me as my children did?? I was emotionally numb. When my husband caught me cheating and was devastated I felt nothing for his hurt feelings. In my head he should of seen it coming?? How awful is that!! Emotions are slowly returning but I'd love to feel more. I know you aren't drs but did I go manic? Can anyone relate to this somewhat?

[Travelinglady]

It could be some mania. Are you bipolar I? It sounds like there might be some irrational getting out of touch with reality, too, possibly. I do think you need to talk to a mental-health professional about the situation.

[sassymck]

Hi. I can recall a time of plotting to cheat on my husband and wishing we were separated so I could. I chain smoke a lot too. The desire to cheat always came during hypomania for me as hypomania = hypersexuality. I don't drink or gamble, but I drink coffee like it's going out of style and smoke like a chimney. During my hypomanic phase, I did engage in online affairs via internet sex, and my husband found out. We even split up for a few months over it, so I can relate to some of what you have been enduring. I can't diagnose it, but I can surely empathize. For sure, seeing a therapist is a great idea. All the best to you.