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Old Apr 08, 2013, 07:12 PM
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If I may vent. Just a minute.

Really. Such a ******* up and down kind of day it's driving me literally insane. Literally. Some highlights. A few.

I had a monetary freak out moment in a meeting at work which resulted in a flurry of papers and me laugh/crying saying "I have no idea what's going on". AND I MEANT IT! I had lost my train of thought within 30 seconds of someone asking me a question. Someone gave me a hard time earlier in the meeting and I had to LITERALLY bite my tongue and grab the table so that I didn't leap across it and stab him his ****ing snarky face with my pen. Really.

I get home and go to my in law's house for dinner and to pick up my daughter who they babysitting today. I'm seriously STANDING by the door for 15 minutes just WAITING for them to give me back my child so that I can go home.

I GET home and call my husband who is incredibly short with me. He was still at work but not busy at all. Just mean. And he kept ****ing minimizing EVERYTHING I told him. Like I do seriously NOTHING and I'm such a bad mother because I never see my daughter and should be HAPPY to spend time with her. (That last sentence was purely my interpretation of the conversation. I fully admit that it might not have been that harsh. But to me, that's just how it sounded at the time. You know what I mean.)

The world is just out to get me today. It WANTED to be a good day but everyone I ran into (almost) today was pretty hell bent on making it miserable.

I hate Mondays. So ****ing much.
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Old Apr 08, 2013, 07:13 PM
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Sorry. For the cursing. That was me holding back. Believe it or not.
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Old Apr 08, 2013, 07:15 PM
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(1) I'm seriously STANDING by the door for 15 minutes just WAITING for them to give me back my child so that I can go home.

(2) Per H, I'm such a bad mother because I never see my daughter and should be HAPPY to spend time with her.
Either (1) or (2), right?...
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Old Apr 08, 2013, 07:19 PM
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Ha! Exactly. I COULD spend more time with her if only my mother in law would let me... ya know... be a mom.

And DON'T get me started on the fact that my sister in law calls my daughter "her baby". Makes my blood boil. Today anyway.
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Old Apr 08, 2013, 09:22 PM
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Mondays are crap I agree and also , go ahead swear away I don't mind , only when my kids do it tho haha. Did u know we can say asshole?
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Old Apr 09, 2013, 05:21 AM
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i remember that rage. when i get this much rage i try to talk less with everyone. if i dont speak with them then they wont reply and that reply wont fuel my rage.find that inner peace,serenity,tranquility that zen thing nessa. like in the lines-

You ask me why I dwell in the green mountain;
I smile and make no reply for my heart is free of care.
As the peach-blossom flows down stream
and is gone into the unknown,
I have a world apart that is not among men.
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Has today been a better day ? ( i hope)
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Old Apr 09, 2013, 07:06 PM
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Aww thanks guys!

Yes today was much better. No meetings at work mean significantly less stress for me. And when I went to pick up my daughter at my mother in law's house today she was VERY clingy... to ME! Which was pretty wonderful.
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Old Apr 09, 2013, 07:07 PM
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I know the feeling. Really I do. I'm so sorry.
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