[comicgeek007]

Mostly because ED getting out of control, but I've also been acting really weird lately. My mood swings are getting worse. I've gotten more aggressive, though not really violent. Just angry. Then psychotically happy and hyper. Then depressed, feel the need to be self-destructive despite meds. My school work is suffering and no matter how hard I try, I can't make it better. I have a long-distance relationship with my boyfriend of 4 years and I feel like we're starting to get strained because if I have no one else to talk to about my feelings then I talk to him. I don't want to scare him again with another suicidal or self-destructive call.

I really don't want to have to eat up months of my life at a hospital. But I want to get better. What do I do?

[Anneinside]

Try to participate in every activity they have during your stay. Interact with others on the ward. Be agreeable with the staff. All of this will make your stay better and help you get out soon.

[comicgeek007]

Originally Posted by Anneinside

Try to participate in every activity they have during your stay. Interact with others on the ward. Be agreeable with the staff. All of this will make your stay better and help you get out soon.

I've been in inpatient, I know not to be stupid and just dot all the i's, cross all the t's while there. I just want to know if there're things I can do to make me stable WITHOUT having to go to the hospital again.

[Anneinside]

Sorry, I thought you were already in the hospital.... but one thing, due to insurance, almost all stays in the psych wards are short term. You almost can't get in without being suicidal or homicidal and you are out the second they think you aren't going to jump off a roof. As to now, see your psychiatrist and therapist if you have one. You may need a med change. Also, try to eat several small meals every day. I don't know what you mean by acting weird, but your best bet is medical intervention.

[~Christina]

I agree with Anne ... there are very very few little long term inpatient facilities. Maybe a few weeks for your ED and the rest would be out patient.

If your mood has been up down and around maybe you need to see your Pdoc and a possible med change ( if you are currently taking any)

Back off talking to your BF about your moods.. Purge here type to get it out of your system.

Are you in college or highschool , sorry I can't remember

[Yoda]

I have found inpatient beneficial at times. The first time I was in for five weeks.

Another option may be intensive outpatient group therapy where you go for four or five hours per day several times per week. But inpatient is better for adjusting meds.

[Victoria'smom]

ED units are generally re-feed unit. Start taking your PRN meds to try to slow moods down. Call your pdoc tomorrow morning. Call the local hospitals for Out patient options. Right now your T isn't helpful. Is your meds being digested? (I know annoying question) Sign up for on-line classes just in case. They usually allow you to continue online classes in patient if they know about it upon entry. Therefore you aren't "eat up months" of time. Find out how to get incomplete in your classes. That way your current state does not effect your grades.

[wildflowerchild25]

I agree, try to find a partial hospital or IOP program. I don't know about where you are but in NJ long term means state hospital and they are terrible places ( I know from experience that the adolescent one was!). I don't know what it is like there but most private hospitals won't keep you past a few weeks at the most. Try to get into partial or maybe do a shirt inpatient stay and then partial.

[sugahorse1]

Inpatient really is a good idea when you feel like you've hit rock bottom. It just gets you onto your feet again and started in the right direction

[comicgeek007]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I agree with Anne ... there are very very few little long term inpatient facilities. Maybe a few weeks for your ED and the rest would be out patient.

If your mood has been up down and around maybe you need to see your Pdoc and a possible med change ( if you are currently taking any)

Back off talking to your BF about your moods.. Purge here type to get it out of your system.

Are you in college or highschool , sorry I can't remember

In college. I got switched form Seroquel to Abilify and maybe I need to give it more time but so far it feels like it's doing jack for my mood. I'm finally more mellow now, but today I was bouncing off the walls hyper and happy and decided on a whim that I was going to dye my hair - and proceeded to do so without having ever done that type of dye myself before. And the past few days I've been really depressed, other than yesterday. And I've been angry a lot, like aggressive angry.

Originally Posted by Yoda

I have found inpatient beneficial at times. The first time I was in for five weeks.

Another option may be intensive outpatient group therapy where you go for four or five hours per day several times per week. But inpatient is better for adjusting meds.

I really hope I don't have to go to inpatient *again*, it feels like I just got out. I hate being treated like I'm a freak who people need to step on eggshells around and who needs to be locked up. Intensive outpatient sounds fairly promising though. Maybe that's what my dad and stepmom will end up setting up assuming I can keep it together enough not to purge again until semester ends in two weeks.

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

ED units are generally re-feed unit. Start taking your PRN meds to try to slow moods down. Call your pdoc tomorrow morning. Call the local hospitals for Out patient options. Right now your T isn't helpful. Is your meds being digested? (I know annoying question) Sign up for on-line classes just in case. They usually allow you to continue online classes in patient if they know about it upon entry. Therefore you aren't "eat up months" of time. Find out how to get incomplete in your classes. That way your current state does not effect your grades.

My pdoc won't let me have his contact info. I contacted my T, though (I know, not all that helpful...).

Yeah, meds are digested. Never purged within a few hours of having taken meds. I only have two weeks, including finals, left, so I'm gonna try to tough it out until things get wore because even an incomplete or five couldn't fix my grades, which most are close to failing, but not quite. I still have a chance, I think.

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I agree, try to find a partial hospital or IOP program. I don't know about where you are but in NJ long term means state hospital and they are terrible places ( I know from experience that the adolescent one was!). I don't know what it is like there but most private hospitals won't keep you past a few weeks at the most. Try to get into partial or maybe do a shirt inpatient stay and then partial.

There are long-term places. If I tried to go somewhere around where I go to college, I'd get shipped off to the adolecent ward of a place that still occasionally gives me nightmares. And then they wouldd try to force me into long term until my parents came down here and said hell no.

Originally Posted by sugahorse1

Inpatient really is a good idea when you feel like you've hit rock bottom. It just gets you onto your feet again and started in the right direction

I've never really shared that sentiment. My first stay was very traumatic, my second was also but for reasons that weren't the staff's fault.

[~Christina]

Could certainly be the med change, maybe more time is needed , I was on Seroquil in the past , zombie land and weight gain so I dropped that one fast. Never tried Abilify. When you are all hyped up and bouncing around... Do you get out and just maybe run till it wears off? any kind of Cardio? When the depressed moods start what do you do then?

What do me you don't have your Pdocs info? Who is prescribing your medications? The Pdoc needs to work with you to find a medication that will help you. Every single Medication I have tried as been a joint decision.. his and mine.. We also discussed how soon I could be seeing an improvement etc.

Anger is a very common system of BP...

Hair color .. I wouldn't worry too much , unless you are changing the color 6 times a month like I use too LMAO

[comicgeek007]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Could certainly be the med change, maybe more time is needed , I was on Seroquil in the past , zombie land and weight gain so I dropped that one fast. Never tried Abilify. When you are all hyped up and bouncing around... Do you get out and just maybe run till it wears off? any kind of Cardio? When the depressed moods start what do you do then?

What do me you don't have your Pdocs info? Who is prescribing your medications? The Pdoc needs to work with you to find a medication that will help you. Every single Medication I have tried as been a joint decision.. his and mine.. We also discussed how soon I could be seeing an improvement etc.

Anger is a very common system of BP...

Hair color .. I wouldn't worry too much , unless you are changing the color 6 times a month like I use too LMAO

I do, but it takes forever. HOURS of running and pacing and talking too much too fast, eat more because if I'm really happy, I'm probably not too worried with how I look.

For depression, I've tried writing, drawing and running (that usually only makes me hate myself more, though). I also drink caffeine if it gets too bad, but that's likely to set me off into really angry agressive b**** mode if I overdo it. I've tried drinking, but that is only a once in a blue moon thing. I was much happier, though.

I mean I see him, but I don't get to talk to him outside of apts because he is an a**hat that won't let his patients talk to him when they need to. You must go through your T. He put me on medicine without listening to my old doctor... The whole rant is in another thread called "My pdoc is a pompous a**hat!!" Long story short, he didn't care what I or anyone else said. I am totally only depressed because he doesn't believe I have mood swings because I haven't slept around yet. Yep. Totally serious.

[~Christina]

Well right now you don't need labeled BP , considering your home state is ridiculous.

If you call or see your T .. how long does that take to speak to he/she? And following that how long til you hear back about medications ?

Is it possible to find a new Pdoc ? Is it through your college?

I notice you take Zoloft.. that could be a trigger for the mania?.. I can't take any AD's for that reason.

Just keep standing up for your health

[comicgeek007]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well right now you don't need labeled BP , considering your home state is ridiculous.

If you call or see your T .. how long does that take to speak to he/she? And following that how long til you hear back about medications ?

Is it possible to find a new Pdoc ? Is it through your college?

I notice you take Zoloft.. that could be a trigger for the mania?.. I can't take any AD's for that reason.

Just keep standing up for your health

I agree, but he went and raised my zoloft because he thought I was just depressed. I feel just a bad as before, minus the fear of weight gain from meds.

It usually doesn't take long for her to talk to my pdoc, usually less than a day. Then my T calls me back and say whatever new instructions if there are any.

Probably not. I'm looking through to see what is available through my college since I'll qualify for it next semester.

[~Christina]

are your T and Pdoc a combo ??? Do you like your T ? I am not certain if legally a T can even be the go between... Usually a Nurse RN or at least a LPN would/could/should be relaying information.

Your whole situation looks like a train wreck waiting to happen.

Look into Psych care on campus, try to manage your stress, enjoy your new haircolor ! Hopefully you can hang in there until you can get a real Pdoc to help you