I must destroy stuff on purpose like Kali

Oh mah gawd!!!
Just found a $5 bill in my appointment book!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My sparkly purple appointment book, you have no idea how happy I am right now!!!!!!!!!!!! I should get a burrito!!! So hungry!!!


This is seriously a miracle!!! Justa thought I'd share

Yes, go get a burrito. They're delicious ^^

I did get one, and the guy randomnly gave me a free ice cream sundae lol

Blue ! The universe is at work !!!

I brought the sundae home to my little guy cuz last night he told me he loves caramel sauce on ice cream, (asked me if we could get some next time i have money) and it was a caramel sundae!
We'll take any miracle we can get.

Kali is the younger, less mature version. In Durga, She is the more mature version whose violence is tempered by wisdom. Durga is protector as well as destroyer.

I'm so glad you found enough for a treat for you and your youngest.

MM bet you can imagine how big his eyes got and the smile when I showed up with that caramel sundae for him, very special. Praying my tax return comes through tomorrow, maybe I'll have an ice cream too

Oh I'm keeping my fingers cross for you.

I did get my return today! Big relief but it's soon to be spent on bills etc. bought lots of food and veggies. Will do juicing in the morning.

Pdoc today, I've agreed to slowly give lamictal another try, adding an extra klonopin for daytime for now, she feels it's much safer than Valium which is what I wanted.

She's very happy I'm juicing, says the antioxidants are great for mood and an energy boost. I asked for delplin, she said its a good one but can bring on more irritability so lets wait till I'm calmer.

I admitted I've felt irritable psycho pulling my hair out. I admitted to road rage and made her agree to not write that down because I'm not going to hurt anyone and wouldn't risk losing my license. I admitted I have not been taking the lithium because of the weight gain and that I want to scream when I look at that bottle. She thinks I'm doing well - for the cicumstances haha??

I will call her if I again have sleepless nights with racing thoughts where 2 klonopins and an ambien do nothing, and she'll write me for a few 25mg seroquels to try.

So overall I feel ok about the appt, she spent 40 mins with me, I vented well. I'm happy with her this time.

Work was rough today but my offices look gorgeous, ready for my big secret meetings all day tomorrow. I'm so nervous, it will be what it will be. I will be taking my new day time klon tomorrow for sure. (Our plan for klon tapering down will happen when life's a little steadier). And wearing extra deodorant cuz I'll probably be sweating!

Wish me luck!!!

...and luck you shall have C

C!
So glad you received your tax return and that your pdoc appoinment went well! I'm hopeful that these two positives got the ball rolling for many more positives to follow suite!

You're doing well lady, may not feel like it, but you are. You are still fighting back in the face of all this adversity, you are swimming, even if it feels like sinking at times, you're not. You're stronger than the current and that speaks volumes about your character, strength, resillience and tenacity!

You're a true hero in my book hon