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Hey everyone, been a while, but want to vent. I just dont know what to be. Or do. Or say. Since I lost my job it seems like im just going downhill. I made an appt with my therapist and thinking of seeing a psych, a different one. I feel like I have to fake it a lor more now and I want to drink again. Bad, like I was before. I still feel me inside there but I just get pushed ro the side. I dont want this again. I cant do it again. And I feel like I cant really talk to anyone. I just need someone to tell me what to do.

Hello, You are not doing yourself any justice by not telling the therapist how you are feeling. The whole point of going to a therapist is to let your guard down because talking about whats bothering you helps. The best thing is that they are impartial so faking is no good. I'm sorry that you are having a horrible time of it. Drinking is only going to make things worse. I know, my brother died last august , and he was only 43. Best wishes. I know how you feel, you want a person to make decisions for you, I felt like that some time ago, it can be unbearable. I wish you all the best and let me know how you get on.I'm sorry I cant be of any help to you.

Yes, sounds like a good plan to get in to see someone soon. Catching it before it gets out of hand you'll probably do better.

I do see someone, it's just like I cant really go in depth. I stopped seeing my therapist but like i said, I set another appt with her. I was just doing so good and I feel like im slipping again and I dont want my fam and friends to know. I just feel so off.

Well, cycles come and go and it's good to have support when you need it. There's nothing wrong with that. Our society makes us feel like there is, but really there's not. I hope you feel better soon.

Don't drink. Don't drink. Don't drink. And I agree with others - in order for your therapist or anyone is able to help you they have to have all the facts. Then they'll have the tools needed to really help.

I'm dual diagnosed - alcoholic & bipolar. Drinking sent me way down & its amazing I escaped with my life. In the beginning, not even with my sanity, but with help I'm getting better. You can too. By venting you are, in essence letting some of that out & it helps. At least it helps me tons!!!

I, too, hope you feel better & anytime you need a listening, well reading, outlet, feel free to vent to me anytime.

PS I lost my job the day I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and in a way its a silver lining - it has given me extra time to heal without that nutty job.