[winkynjr]

I am so sick and tired of being up and down like I am on a rollercoaster ride.....well I want off of this dam ride!!!! I am so tired of feeling so dam needy all the time!!! I am so tired of not sleeping, or when I do sleep, have nightmares!!! I am so tired of fighting this fight!!! you know I try to watch tv and 90% of the shows are about molestation or something!!! I mean WTF???
right now I am just doing my best to keep my head above ground and most of the time it is by numbing out right now!!! I have been so numb that I cannot even feel joy!!! I do feel my physical pain though!! I wish I could numb out from it!! I know this is part of my depression because I thought all my physical bs was over and here we go again!!! more crap, more physical pain which may end up in more surgery!!!!

[A Red Panda]

A lot of the time I want off the roller coaster too. Especially if I'm depressed. But sometimes I just get worried about when the depression will strike again - because I know it will eventually.

I tend to watch cartoons when I'm depressed - especially ones I liked as a kid. Much better than watching random stuff on tv that will possibly upset me!

I hope things will start to look up again soon for you.

[Diversion]

It gets tiring doesn't it? lol Especially when you have multiple dx's and physical problems. I just recently realized that my back and hip pain almost abruptly stopped as soon as the source of stress for me was gone. I was like "wow, really!?". Very frustrating.
I know it's gonna sound crazy (everything i say does lol) but when i am feeling very down I watch "Castaway" with Tom Hanks. I don't know if you've ever seen it but for some reason when i watch it, any feelings of pity or depression go away at least for a while.
I think it's a cursed life we live when we have to deal with these monumental mood swings all the time. No one else can really fully understand it. Just the emotional exhaustion from trying to keep it all in check is enough to wipe me out some days. Then people ask "what did you do today" and all i can think is..."you wouldn't get it" lol.
I know my thoughts are a jumbled mess but I hope this helps.

[bluewave7]

My husband has chronic neck pain and is also bipolar. He broke his neck last year and it did not fuse. He's at a level 8-10 every day.

Our therapist said that physical pain brings depression on and that depression makes the pain seem worse. There is a definite correlation between the two. Hope you are feeling better Sony.