[bluemountains]

Today I found out I officially have a contract for next year. My principal had assured me I would, but she was hoping she would be able to find a spot for another teacher who has been in the county longer so that there would be no hard feelings in keeping me. She is able to keep both of us, but prefers that I stay in fifth grade and she is moving the other teacher to another grade level. The other teacher is satisfied to have a job, and I thought I was, too.
Minutes later, after finding out the news, I was treated pretty rudely by a teammate because she is so upset that the other teacher has to leave our grade level, obviously I am her choice to leave. I won't go over all that she said, but my feelings were very much hurt.
After all of this, I had therapy today. I had written down the wrong time. When I discovered that I was late, I lost it. I have been crying since then. I let my t know that I couldn't focus on anything we were discussing.
Obviously, I was not just crying over the appointment. I was just so deflated after feeling so great about the job situation for next year, with both of us getting jobs.
I am not over it yet, and it will take awhile because I can't move away from this sadness.
I hope this isn't the circumstance that sends me completely in the wrong direction. I have been emotional lately but able to maintain. I don't want to go into crazy mode!
Bluemountains

[~Christina]

Awwwww Blue

What an emotional day ! Anyone would be upset and trying to process it. I really don't see this event sending you spinning off into the unknown. You are alot stronger than you think, I think. You have learned so many things to help yourself manage this life, You have learned AND you are actually applying it all !

So the co workers rude comments , yeah I would be hurt, then I would remind myself that she should have a been a professional and kept concerns like that to herself . So shame on her! Ugh rude people are a pet peeve

I think you need to go ahead and feel all the emotions from the day, let them stew for a lil bit and then pluck out the good ones toss the othes out your door and get a good nites rest.

You got this Blue

[Nessa213]

Having a contract for next year is amazing news so congrats to that!!!

Even when I can pinpoint something as situationally triggered, that doesn't seem to make it any easier to cope with in my opinion. Particularly when it's in response to something someone said... which is awful that this person did that!! You both still have a job, that's the important thing. I know how awful it feels when someone gets into your head like that over a thoughtless comment.

[bluemountains]

Thanks for the encouragement. I am hoping some of my reaction is just due to the stressful time of year. I wish I was a person who could let things go easily.

Nessa, I love your quote from The Rocky Horror Picture Show! As many times as I have watched/heard this I never considered those words in isolation.