[Nessa213]

She hadn't shown up for a few days... before today. That nagging voice in my head that tells me I'm a raging embarrassment and a miserable failure. She's such an angry an insistent thing... it's hard to not believe her.

I have no friends really... my family deserves far better... sometimes I go so far as to think they would just do better to be done with me. One way or another.

The logical side of my brain tries to tell me this isn't true but that menacing voice just keeps punching logic in the face. Erm... metaphorically speaking.

Early bedtime I think... what the **** is the point anymore.

[unaluna]

I think she went on vacation with my voice. With any luck, they will catch legionnaire disease on their cruise and never come back. I actually got some shite done today and brushed my teeth before bed.

[A Red Panda]

You need to buy your logic a helmet and some boxing gloves. Then you can show that voice who's boss!!

Have you ever wrote a list of things that prove to you that you're not a failure or an embarassment? If you haven't... write one at some point when you're feeling good, and then you can go and look at it whenever you need to. Keep it with you when you're out somewhere in case you need a reminder! If you have people that you trust and care about, you could always get them to help you make the list.

Originally Posted by Nessa213

She hadn't shown up for a few days... before today. That nagging voice in my head that tells me I'm a raging embarrassment and a miserable failure. She's such an angry an insistent thing... it's hard to not believe her.

I have no friends really... my family deserves far better... sometimes I go so far as to think they would just do better to be done with me. One way or another.

The logical side of my brain tries to tell me this isn't true but that menacing voice just keeps punching logic in the face. Erm... metaphorically speaking.

Early bedtime I think... what the **** is the point anymore.

I am insulted all of the time by Demons, but what they are really trying to do is criticize me.

So, perhaps that "voice" in your head is testing your reaction, to see if you are strong enough to withstand ridicule.

[sprik]

my voice is always talks to me, u cant let it win, scream at it, say no no no, find a way of distraction when its talking, thats what im trying, it so hard, I fight it every day smetimes every minute, good luck

[manymiles]

I hope you are feeling better today.

I could have written your post, at bedtime it's dark emotionally and I think the same exact things. When I wake up I'm like what the heck was that yesterday. on lamotrigine 75mg and wondered if this is wrong med dose or something.

[wadingthruemotions]

Originally Posted by Nessa213

She hadn't shown up for a few days... before today. That nagging voice in my head that tells me I'm a raging embarrassment and a miserable failure. She's such an angry an insistent thing... it's hard to not believe her.

I have no friends really... my family deserves far better... sometimes I go so far as to think they would just do better to be done with me. One way or another.

The logical side of my brain tries to tell me this isn't true but that menacing voice just keeps punching logic in the face. Erm... metaphorically speaking.

Early bedtime I think... what the **** is the point anymore.

I totally understand this. I fight this voice every dang day...many many times.