scary feelings and thoughts

I have been doing better than I have done all my life. In the last few years being out in society I have learned to control my emotions and be a person I like so much better but I struggle with those skeletins inside that tug on me. I spent years depressed and agoraphobic dealing with a daughter diagnosed with bipolar with psychotic features. She had a breakdown at 8 years old. Since I was little I hated to go anywhere and I'm 46 but now I'm lonely and still struggling. I have so many thoughts when I'm alone that make me sad. I'm trying to move beyond all of the unhappiness but I go to work and come home, then I sit here and can't move. I want more but I'm so scared.

Thank you for listening and any responses are very encouraged.:-)

I can relate kdclement. I want more then anything to get out make friends and live life. Unfortunately I close up around ppl automatically. It feels like there is not much more to life then existing. I try to keep those negative thoughts at bay, but they do creep out. I find it helpful to try and keep busy . . . wish I always was up to it . Wish I had more advice . . .