[bipolarOne79]

What is the point in life? Life is a constant battle, I feel like I am always depressed. I am a lousy father, always arguing with my wife about it. I feel as though things will never get easier or better. Everyone I talk to I bother, no one cares about me or how I feel. I am not the person I wanted to grow up and be, I am just a failure of a person. I am tired of trying, I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up.

[A Red Panda]

I don't really think there is much of a point to life.

I do, however, enjoy giving my own life a point. I feel like I'm in control if I get to pick the point of life!

And yeah... the battle with the stupid thoughts is tough. I decided I am going to win that battle though, so when I get really depressed I'm like "EFF YOU BRAIN! I am going to win this round!" and then I bunker down and wait it out.

Honestly that sounds a bit nutty but the visual for me always works well. It doesn't stop the bad thoughts... but it does stop me from acting on them. Which means I win!

Originally Posted by bipolarOne79

What is the point in life? Life is a constant battle, I feel like I am always depressed. I am a lousy father, always arguing with my wife about it. I feel as though things will never get easier or better. Everyone I talk to I bother, no one cares about me or how I feel. I am not the person I wanted to grow up and be, I am just a failure of a person. I am tired of trying, I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up.

BipolarOne, I think at some point or another, we all have those feelings. I can't guarantee you that things will get better or easier, but I promise, things will change.

Even though you are a stranger, I do care how you feel, just like there are people here that have never met me, but they care, and they help me. They will help you. But you have to want it. You have to want to make yourself better. Yes, it's a b**ch of a fight, it is. I know I've been fighting it, but I've learned that things will change, and I will just need to hang on a little while longer.

I'm not what I wanted to be when I was a kid, but that's okay. I'm happy w/ who I am, and where I'm at in life. That doesn't mean I'm not striving for better, but I am grateful for what I have. I've worked hard for it.

Obviously you have kids and a wife, just for today, love them the best way you can. Give the kids a hug and tell them you love them. Tell you wife that you love her and that you are glad that they are in your life.

I keep telling myself when i am feeling the way you are right now, "Don't let the ba**ard win!" Don't quite, keep up the fight! It may not seem like it now, but life is worth it.

[Lab_Rat]

Ditto. Do one good thing for yourself today and one thing for your family. A walk, long shower, haircut. Whatever is a nice thing for you. And yes, tell your family how much you love them and draw strength from their love. My husband and I fight too. Because this sick brain will never get better. But it's all about managing.

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[Victoria'smom]

The point of life: Be as happy and healthy as you can be?

As a parent with Bipolar I understand it can be hard. I don't know how old your kids are but a 5 min. bed time a night really helps kids understand no matter what the day held you still care and love them. As long as you try that's good enough for children. Try to do something you use to enjoy today. Happy fathers day.

Are you in therapy? If you are you may want to have your therapist explain how bipolar affects you. It usually takes far more than ones but it's really hard for others to understand. Possibly couples therapy may help the arguing.

Talk here, we all understand what Bipolar is like, sometimes understanding is all you need. People adapt, things will change but there will always be ups and downs, all we can do is figure out how to be stable longer and roll with what comes.

[bipolarOne79]

Just wanted to say thanks for the replies. I don't feel as though my life will ever change. Life is just a never ending battle that I am tired of fighting. I am in therapy so maybe that will help but I don't really have any hope. I just feel like a bother to everyone, everyone here, my counselor, and psychiatrist. They just talk to me because its their job. I hate feeling this way. I want all this to end.

[LadyShadow]

I often feel this way. Especially when I'm home with nothing to do.

I think the point is to keep trying like you are. Maybe one day sun will shine through your clouds

Just know you're not alone in your feelings