[Trippin2.0]

For those of you who don't know, the dead sometimes speak to me (in dreams) and I feel the presence of others not from this plain.

No no no, its completely separate from my crazy, for proof? An old friend's estranged father (whom I never met) instructed me to write her a 4 page letter, before any of us knew he died. The letter was relevent and spoke of stuff I had no way of knowing; their past, and her future inheritance for example...

Ok so now hopefully nobody rolls their eyes at the next paragraph...

There's someone coming into my room, I can't gauge who it is though, but I'm leaning toward my dad... Why? Well because he goes and sits on the exact spot on my bed where my dad used to when he wanted to say something important, and it feels like daddy too, still, I'm not sure coz daddy wouldn't unnerve me.... No I don't see him, but the mattress becomes indented when he sits down, sometimes it even creaks (its old lol).

You have no idea how many times I've woken up thinking Jordan or Gary just sat down on my bed to chat, only to find nobody. Man do I feel like a fool saying "heyyy" with a big smile to nobody! Or how many times I've actually seen the mattress lower in that spot... I just tell it to please leave...

Problem is , it won't. It keeps returning, any tips?

I'm not scared, slightly unnerved because its persistant yes and I also just feel like whoever it is, doesn't belong, feels like they should go, but it doesn't listen to me.

Second thing is a quick question, dont worry.

9 time out of 10 I have gotten off at the wrong bus stop this past 2 weeks... I "see" where I am, but I'm not really there, I'm much further along the route and end up missing my stop its scarey becoz I get home after dark and becoz WTF IS THAT? I was staring at my stop but I swear I saw a completely different stop which is 10 minutes before mine. I only knew to get out at the next stop becoz I recognized the passenger exiting! I made sure I'm not distracted and that I'm alert, it doesn't help. I've now resorted to counting how many times the bus turns once we enter my neigbourhood.

WTF?

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I should know better than to post on weekends.

Maybe Google has answers for me

[~Christina]

Damn I posted a big long response that made sense and it went poof and disappeared !

Yes I can relate to what your are going through. I lost my father in 97 he has been with me ever since, wanders off once in a while when I have asked him to please go away. He is always around when I am not doing well, It flipped me out at first I thought I had gone off the edge , around the bend , plain crazy.. Nope He is just with me, he was and is my best friend. ( doubters please don't bother to tell me I need an AP, thank you )

Ohhhhh zooming past your stop ... maybe it could be all the new stress your under with new job and dear old dad hanging around? Hell I use to drive past my house alot, I remember my daughter Amanda use to say "Mommy you keep driving past our house " she was 5

Hang in there Sis... You are doing amazing I think

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Thanks Sis The bus stop could be stress and the visits have been more frequent on sad days. Work has been crayyyyzy, but atleast it gives me a chance to impress immediately, and I've been assured its just another week or 2 of insane deadlines. Already my 3 month probation looks like a mere formality.

The bosses (a couple) invited me to their holiday home for the weekend on the coast to go whale watching and kick back after a horrendous few weeks. They said the team deserves a nice break and I'm already part of the team so I should join in.... It was too short notice for me, so had to decline but it was nice to be invited along.

The eyes thing freak me out because I'm seeing completely wrong. I was unknowingly staring right at my bus stop which means in reality we were facing a high mint green wall and were stationary at a stop sign. What I saw; the bus driving round a bend past the small church on the left facing a small park... I had to walk quite a distance to get home I don't like it.

Well atleast counting the turn offs solves the problem, no matter what I see I'm sure I can't count wrong.

Google also blames stress btw. Geez as if an achy spine, increased hair fall and pimples aren't enough!

Upside? I sleep, although sleeping earlier sucks, no reason to be up and about, well rested at 4am on a Saturday

Thanks for responding and the vote of confidence I know weekends most people are busy doing people things and its kinda deserted around here

[~Christina]

I am so happy that this job is working out so well ! A job that can take you places and where you are a part of a team ! So much better than your old one.

Please becareful with the missing of stops ... I don't like the idea of you having to walk all around

Pain , hair loss and pimples? whats up with that ? is that new ?

[Trippin2.0]

The job has long term potential yes, and I am very happy there

Will definitely be more vigilant in the bus!

The pimples, hairfall and spine always act up when I'm stressed. I've never been good at recognizing I'm stressed, unless I suddenly have a huge panic attack, but clever me has discovered that my body has been giving me physical clues, which I now use to avoid said panic attack. Sans the pain and hairfall, which both started over a year ago, I've been experiencing the zit attacks and headaches (which I forgot to mention bcoz I'm used to them) for atleast as long as I've been an adult, even though I only managed to put 2 and 2 together quite recently and discovered these things act up when I'm stressed OUT... lol
So definitly not new, although very unpleasant.

The hairfall and pain have decreased, my scalp is no longer sensitive, so thats how I know my hair's fine again. My face looks like shyt though, but I'm applying zit-killer religiously.

I know I need to chill out though, or they all flair up again no matter what type of action I take.

[~Christina]

Stress will certainly do that, I also believe Fibro can do the same.. Stress also triggers Fibro flare up . Vicious damn b!tch circle.

Switch the acne meds you use .. i flip flop between 2 different creams of course right now I can't think of the names.. I am feeling very DUH today

I have to go shop for groceries I bet I forget half of what I need .. yes a list , I will forget that or lose it .. I am very scattered ..

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I make the lists on my phone. I never leave without my phone so it definitely helps

I currently use Innoxa Young Solutions for the zits, I was introduced to it 2 zit attacks ago, when my teenaged niece was mortified at the woppers on my face, so it still works wonders. Good idea to have more than 1 kind of ammo tho, thanks

Hope grocery shopping goes well, I hate all kinds of shopping, even when hypo, except the impulse and drive makes it "seem" like it will be fun. Being broke after is a good reality check. lol