[ChaoticSymphony]

Holy hell my anger gets bad. I don't even know if this is a bipolar symptom/behaviour but I am fine when left alone. Hubby crossed me yesterday and I spit every venomous word you can think of and had a bag packed for him in under 10 mins yesterday. Note* he's and awesome guy and I love him lots and lots.

To me this sounds more like a PTSD reaction. Anyone who is angry and rightfully so I lash out. Lose control.

After the fight I stayed angry for an hour then calmed down with his attempts to "correct" his rightful anger to me. Does this sound familiar or like PTSD or am I just a brat? I hate acting that way.

I am on zero meds right now and trying to use diet, good sleep and self soothing techniques to feel better. I hate being ball and chained to a list of prescriptions.

[~Christina]

Do you have PTSD diagnosis or something in your past that would cause it? Anger can be part of a Manic episode.

BPD could also be a consideration if the Anger is situational and comes and goes .

[Victoria'smom]

When I'm hypomanic that's me. It's irritability, every potential issue aggravates point that I spewing venom at nearest target.

[sweepy62]

Hi friend that could be both part manic part ptsd making it the perfect storm I know me very well I know u know that I know lol take care my friend love ya hugs sooth

[sweepy62]

I meant I know u and u know me damn pills lol

[wiretwister]

My anger was from my mania, it has lessened as I have aged but when I was young it was terrific.

[ultramar]

Such anger outbursts as part of bipolar disorder tend not to happen in isolation, in that it would likely be part of a manic episode (for example) with all of those accompanying symptoms experienced along with these outbursts. In other words, a constellation/grouping of symptoms (including sometimes anger) occurring over the course of a period of time.

I see in your profile that you've been diagnosed with BPD. This can, for some people, be characterized by angry outbursts. My understanding is that DBT and other therapies can help with regulating this.

As far as PTSD --if it's not acute, but prolonged, I would try to figure out if something your husband did, or something that just occurred before the outburst, reminded you of whatever caused the PTSD? It's probably more complicated than this, but I would start with that.

Are you in therapy? I think whatever the cause, maybe your therapist can help you with this. Figure out the trigger, and come up with ways to stop the train before lashing out. I'm sorry you're going through this.

[ChaoticSymphony]

Thanks everyone. Appreciate your thoughts. Unfortunately I can't afford therapy and the ones offered for free have never been a match. I have gone through 4 of them and have never connected as they seem over loaded and under paid and it shows in their personalities. Thanks again and take care love ya sweepy