Ever since last week I felt calm and happy with what I think is a normal flow of ideas, though I have been subject to mania for so long I don't know what normal is. Anyway I'm more motivated than before. Could I have been in a low grade depprssion for so long that normal thinking seems fast?

[lawrenman]

It could very well be. It's like a scale. On one end manic. On other end depression.

We would need to discuss sleeping habits first. This is by far the best tell-tale sign of where your mind is at, at any given point.

If you think about our ancestors, sleep was never just an easy thing to attain I imagine. It takes training and in our world its become too easy.

Either way the direction you are headed should be considered. Its obvious you are having a quickening effect. Remaining calm will help you throughout while you explore your mind a bit more.

GL. You are not in danger, but you are unstable (not that its a bad thing!). Yin/Yang.

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by Bipolarartist

Ever since last week I felt calm and happy with what I think is a normal flow of ideas, though I have been subject to mania for so long I don't know what normal is. Anyway I'm more motivated than before. Could I have been in a low grade depprssion for so long that normal thinking seems fast?

I don't personally see this as "unstable" ... maybe previous poster knows more about your situation than I do.

So often, many many people on these boards post about:
Am I bipolar, Am I manic, Am I depressed, Am I about to go into an episode, etc.
I think that's usually about the anxiety, like Oh ***** I fear another 'sode is comin on!!

But you sound more calm and curious really. That's the most important thing - how you feel about it, if you're having anxiety about normal really being mania & vice versa, or just curious, or maybe don't trust your thoughts because of past manias...

So anxiety or curiosity, tell more?

[Otter63]

To me one of the worst things about being bipolar is the inability to enjoy felling good without worrying about going manic! Makes me mad!

[~Christina]

I agree with Blue.

How are you feeling ???

I'm feeling fine. I think I'm just feeling a period of stability. It's been many many years so at first I don't think I recognised it and panicked about the mania. I'll just enjoy it while it lasts and write about it so I recognise it next time round.

[~Christina]

Wonderful !!!! ENJOY

[BlueInanna]

Agree^^^