[GenCat]

I feel very low, worthless, fat, disgusted by myself, Im a failure, Im not happy. I want to just die.

[Skittles56]

Keep in mind how much we will all miss you if you're gone. Chin up. You will get through this.

[A Red Panda]

I feel a lot like that myself right now Gencat. Know what I tell myself? "Too damn bad! You're living anyway!"

When I'm feeling horribly low, I tend to think that the best self-punishment I can have is to keep myself alive. So I do, and eventually the feeling passes and then I realize how utterly silly it was. I also daydream of ways to die that I wouldn't have any control over, and thus I couldn't act on it.

I don't think that you're worthless or a failure. I will spare you the chance to argue with me on your body as I don't know what you look like (because no matter what I could say right now, I know that you would discount it!). But I can say for a fact that you're not a failure because who really decides failure? We're born into a rather stupid society. Think back hundreds and hundreds of years - you know how to read and write! You'd have been SOOOOOOOO AWESOME back in medieval times, right?! Also in those days, if you WERE in fact larger, you'd be admired for being able to get that much food!

We just unfortunately live in a world that really has a lot of expectations that are totally made up. It's those expectations that are worthless, NOT YOU!

I think that you're worth a lot. You're worth staying alive for, or how else will you get to see the future when we meet all the aliens?!?! ((Ok... just trying to see if I could get you to crack a tiiiinnny smirk there). But seriously. Aliens. Must stay alive to see if we get to find any. I think THAT is worth living for, right?! Wouldn't it be cool to be the first generation of humans to encounter alien life?! Even if they're just discovered and we never MEET meet them. You know?

[Hong Kong Fluey]

By coming here to tell and share this with us I would say you very much want to live.

You are lovely, you really are and you NEED to be here and I can prove it too. I think you are lovely and it makes me happy spending these few moments replying to you.

So please stay here with me, let's have a nice cup of tea and a chat
Fluey x

[ultramar]

Can you get in touch with your therapist --maybe ask for an extra session? I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, wish I could say something to make it better...

[Amelie10]

Dear GenCat, I feel your pain.

I have so been there. It is a terrible feeling and in that moment it seems that nothing will ever change. But somehow, impossibly it does. There is a small glimmer of hope, a little day light shines in.

Be gentle with yourself. You are worth it.

[middlepath]

Gencat...so many of us have been there. Its an unfortunate place to be, I know it all too well. I am sorry your there now. Think of it as a train that is moving from town-to-town and you just have a stop in "misery-village" before going on to "peaceful-town" or even "pleasant-ville". No single place is permanent...so just get back on the train, hang tight, and it will be moving again soon.

You are important, even if you don't feel that way now. I share your feelings (at times) of being a complete failure, meds have made me gain weight that i am displeased with, and I just get angry sometimes. The worst is when I feel miserable with off-the-charts-anxiety or gutted and empty.

One foot in front of the other...thats all you need to do for now....let everything else go.

*hugs* to you. There are some wonderful words of support and wisdom in this thread.

This moment will pass and it wont always be like this. Hold on to that.

[Hong Kong Fluey]

Originally Posted by Amelie10

Dear GenCat, I feel your pain.

I have so been there. It is a terrible feeling and in that moment it seems that nothing will ever change. But somehow, impossibly it does. There is a small glimmer of hope, a little day light shines in.

Be gentle with yourself. You are worth it.

+1

I could not have said it better myself c

[Mollywisk]

Originally Posted by GenCat

I feel very low, worthless, fat, disgusted by myself, Im a failure, Im not happy. I want to just die.

How are you today?

Been there, done that. My clinicly depressed friend stays away from windows and that if you're that depressed you don't care enough to do the deed. My very first hug given since coming here is for you. HUG. I hope you like hugs. My wife hates them but that's just her.

[LadyShadow]

Like everyone said on this thread, we have been there. I know I have. Life is worth living although it may not seem that way right now. Be kind to yourself. Be gentle. You are worth it, and you will get through this. This is just one hurtle to climb over and you can do it!

Please take care of yourself, you will overcome this.

[GenCat]

thank you all, it means a lot to me that you guys care so much.