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#351
Oct 23, 2013, 07:43 PM
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not feeling very productive. feeling like a failure, like a loser. like im not doing enough, like i cant do enough. enough for who though, i dunno. for myself i guess. the topamax tinglies are pissing me off today, too.
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Bipolar I / Rapid Cycling GAD / OCD Lithium 900mg Seroquel 200mg Topamax 200mg Prozac 40mg Remeron 7.5mg Atarax 25mg |
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#353
Oct 23, 2013, 08:23 PM
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#354
Oct 23, 2013, 09:15 PM
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg  Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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#355
Oct 23, 2013, 09:41 PM
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Bipolar I / Rapid Cycling GAD / OCD Lithium 900mg Seroquel 200mg Topamax 200mg Prozac 40mg Remeron 7.5mg Atarax 25mg |
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#357
Oct 24, 2013, 07:48 AM
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Went to my pdoc this morning and he increased my Latuda to 240 mg. He also gave me Prazosin for nightmares, cause they're getting out of control. Hopefully I'll calm down with the med changes, cause I have been so irritable and just crying all the time.
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| Anonymous45023, johnthorne1539
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#358
Oct 24, 2013, 07:51 AM
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Today is a brand new day and I'm greeting it with cautious optimism.
However, I have learned to be grateful for the days when I wake up feeling any sort of positive feeling. |
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#359
Oct 24, 2013, 08:14 AM
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Longest stable period in a while... I've had minor swings, but nothing that lasted for very long or really distracted me. I have to attribute this in large part to a very regular exercise regimen and sleep schedule: lifting weights 3 times a week, cycle class 3 times a week, up before 5:30am every weekday and before 8 on the weekends. My energy levels have gone through the roof, and not in the hypomanic-jittery-can't-stop-moving way, but in the, "Hey, I feel really good; let me sit down and write a couple lectures" way.
I've also cut down from 10-15 cigarettes a day to 1-2. Commitment begets results! |
| Phoenix_1
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#360
Oct 24, 2013, 08:16 AM
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Am in a good mood right now, don't feel depressed at all. Not sure what's different about today. We'll see how long this lasts . . .
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#361
Oct 24, 2013, 08:26 AM
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SUPER irritated with my unwanted houseguest. He sent me a nasty message and tried to pin me as the bad-guy.... basically because I did not clean up after him? As all the stuff he went on about me not doing.. is because I wasn't there contributing to any of that....
I had unfriended him because I seriously can't even stand the thought of talking to him, so that obviously (and understandably) pissed him off. But still, I am angry about it. Especially as he left a TOTAL MESS in the kitchen.
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..." "I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am. |
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#362
Oct 24, 2013, 09:46 AM
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extremely cold today (and their i am complaining it's cold, and i'm usually complaining it's too hot!)
still not many tv channels either- i'm not sure what's up with that.. no one can figure out why the movie channels won't work feeling good in general though |
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#363
Oct 24, 2013, 10:12 AM
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Got up this morning and then fell back asleep for 3 hours. I was really hoping I was past doing that. Now I am groggy and very mad at myself. Am I ever going to get past this??
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Bi-polar 2 Lamictal 225 titrating up to 300 mg Celexa 40 mg Wellbutrin 300 mg Deplin 15 mg Klonopin .5 prn Benicar 20mg Synthroid .1 mcg |
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#364
Oct 24, 2013, 11:01 AM
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Had a great conversation with a friend yesterday, really lifted my spirits, thanks sweetie! Been off the saphris for 2 nights and my brain is working again, I really missed my brain. Sitting in an airport on my way to a wedding and actually looking forward to going unlike a couple of days ago when I couldn't figure out what to even put in the suitcase. Lets keep our fingers crossed that depakote does the job and does not pack on the pounds!
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#365
Oct 24, 2013, 11:20 AM
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Emo mom, my fingers are crossed for you!
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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#366
Oct 24, 2013, 11:24 AM
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My new tablet just went all wonky and wasn't working. I couldn't post here and I couldn't even reboot! Finally I somehow managed to reboot and that fixed it- obviously. That freaked me out. I just got it, for gosh sakes!
I go for a mammogram today. Then parent teacher conferences for two of my kids. Every five minutes for an hour then more after an hour (dinner break). Gonna be a long day.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
| Anonymous100104, Zabine
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#367
Oct 24, 2013, 11:33 AM
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I dont understand why... so many people like being in relationships. I dont get it, it is terrible. I am not 'in love' with her. I get nothing to my self, besides now because Im not working again, shes going to school. Now she will come home and inspect every aspect of our room and if there is a speck on the carpet she will flip out about how im not working but I cant keep the room clean.
We moved out of her place because of rent issues and now live at my parents with our baby, where its just so annoying. I have a sister who is 8 and they like to hang out and watch TV and keep eachother busy. But my GF still says I cant leave anywhere to help. I mean leave outside for a smoke, is a hard thing to do. I have to ask and then she rolls her eyes because she thinks im trying to just get away. Now I dont want to break up because im worried that she wont have a place to go, so im trying to wait until she gets a house. I told her how i felt in the past and only got cries Lame, Lame lame. another lame *** day |
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#368
Oct 24, 2013, 01:24 PM
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this is my third day on Topamax . good, i'm not hungry, good all booze tastes terrible, bad i am in a weird weird soup, really, really bad i have serious thoughts of doing harmful things and it's like i have very little control over that. i am wondering whether i possess the self control to come through this and benefit from the med or ,wel l the alternative doesn't look pretty. i haven't felt this odd in a while
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#369
Oct 24, 2013, 02:27 PM
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[COLOR="DeepSkyBlue"][FONT="Century Gothic"]Dx: Bipolar II w/mixed episodes, PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, Insomnia Rx: Lamictal 100mg, Zoloft 75mg, Klonopin 0.5mg x1 /0.25 PRN “Insanity is knowing that what you're doing is completely idiotic, but still, somehow, you just can't stop it.” ― Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation |
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#370
Oct 24, 2013, 02:30 PM
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Today is a good day. I took the day off work and I went to Michael's and got some beads on sale. Hopefully I'll get my website and Etsy shop up and running with some new jewelry soon. I can't wait to be done with work so I can spend more time beading.
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[COLOR="DeepSkyBlue"][FONT="Century Gothic"]Dx: Bipolar II w/mixed episodes, PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, Insomnia Rx: Lamictal 100mg, Zoloft 75mg, Klonopin 0.5mg x1 /0.25 PRN “Insanity is knowing that what you're doing is completely idiotic, but still, somehow, you just can't stop it.” ― Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation |
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#371
Oct 24, 2013, 03:19 PM
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Oct 24, 2013, 05:27 PM
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Oct 24, 2013, 05:37 PM
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..." "I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am. |
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#374
Oct 24, 2013, 06:18 PM
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Doing better than the other day. I think being sick just gave me way too much time to think and combine that with a lot anxiety and stress it's not a good thing. I'm starting to feel better though
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#375
Oct 24, 2013, 07:18 PM
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Bad day. I dont want to take my meds. They are sitting there waiting for me to take them. I know I have to but I dont want to. I really do think they are now causing more harm than good. I'm getting so down about how hard everything is to do, how hard it is to function in everyday life. I havent washed my hair for a week and a half, I dont have the energy to stand in the shower for long enough. I might borrow a garden chair from work to do it today. I need to go to work again very shortly, I had to miss yesterday and I feel so guilty, I cannot miss today - today I will be on my own, no one I have to talk to, it wont be so bad. But I have no idea how I will get off the couch.
Im almost out of medication, I know logically I should taper down, but my healthcare card got cut off and I now cant afford anymore until the company gets back to me (who knows when that will be) so I am tempted to go cold turkey. Part of me knows this is a bad idea, but it feels like the easiest option. Inside me has been screaming help help help since yesterday but I cant seem to help myself. |
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