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#1
Oct 07, 2013, 11:52 AM
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..it's not like I was never there!
I never knew what I was in to... that I would break my heart and lose my mind?... these two were never ! ... that I would fall all over myself and tear myself in half just to figure it out ... how I go so crazy ...and it's not over it's never over... I have to locate things so wide-eyed blind man impossible and out of sight to see asleep behind blind breathless psycho-insomniac ... damn it hurts real bad but was I even there? I am not insulated by intelligence...alternatively damaged by it... and simplicity reminds me where I belong... I so want to run and hide... unfortunately...no can do |
 Anonymous100104, gayleggg, mzunderstood79, ~Christina
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Oct 07, 2013, 12:19 PM
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Hang in there bud. I've made terrible decisions myself when I was in my manic states. Really bad decisions that I would never do normally before the bipolar manifested. I used to speak in riddles as well when I was in an episode. Everything I wrote was difficult to decipher and when I looked back on it once I was stable all I could tell is that I was hurting. I also tried to run and hide moving across the U.S like a gypsy trying to outrun my problems. It took me a long time to confront it and realized there is no running. Hope you get through what your going through, I know how hard it is.
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Oct 07, 2013, 12:43 PM
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I could write a long list of terrible decisions that I have made. Things that hurt not only me but the people I love most in the world. But I have to let it go and move forward and try to limit or avoid triggers that mess with my head. Maybe you can do that, I hope you can!!
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Oct 07, 2013, 01:14 PM
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((((((dubblemonkey))))))
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Oct 07, 2013, 01:24 PM
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I'm so sorry you're feeling this pain. This is truly something I understand. Much love
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Oct 07, 2013, 01:48 PM
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Ok I probably have it wrong) here's a knee jerk reaction:
No it's never over , but maybe when it happens it happens strong at first and is always there but less and less. But I guess it will get less and less and maybe you will be cursing dish water. Who want's watered down whisky? We desire the full on f me up the arse experience then curse it when it becomes the Waltons (painfully aware this may not be whatever my brains too gone to compute.)
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