[cashart10]

I just had a baby 2 weeks ago. I've been crying all day everyday until about 3 days ago but still crying. This morning I cried for no reason. Then this afternoon I'm in the doctor's office and I get the urge to break out into song (something I have done while manic in the past). I didn't do it, thankfully, but I then laughed out loud, there in the office, like an ignorant fool. I still feel a little on the goofy side and have too much energy but, again, was busy crying this morning. I am afraid I may be losing my mind again...even typing this is a little hilarious and difficult and I know that mood episodes are common after birth. I don't think I can handle a severe depression again but I really can't handle being manic...it will land me in the hospital because I become psychotic quickly. I can't afford a trip to the hospital because my babies need me. Anyway, just rambling...not even sure the purpose of this post. Just needed to vent and more importantly wondering what to think about crying in the morning and acting insanely in the afternoon? Is it hormones maybe? Is it rapid cycling (something I don't experience)? What gives? Also, I'm a newbie so hello guys.

[wildflowerchild25]

I was a total wreck after my son was born. Crying at every single little thing. For me it was a mix of hormones and very little sleep. I probably had some postpartum depression but this was before I sought treatment for bipolar disorder so I don't know how much the mood disorder played into it. I do know that having a baby (or two - you said babies) really messes with your head. Don't be discouraged. If you have a pdoc I would let him or her know your concerns.

[Victoria'smom]

I was in really bad after my son was born I really believe I had postpartum Psychosis.

hope you get to feeling better.

and congrats on the new babies

[cashart10]

Thanks for your support. I went to my pdoc today and acted insanely. I'm not sure if I am becoming manic or if I am just extremely sleep deprived; my pdoc wasn't sure either but she was worried about me. Neither is very good. I'm feeling a bit more normal at this moment so we'll see.

[noshadows]

From zero to hero in one day! That's me today and there is absolutely nothing I can do but to go with it!? Feeling purposeful and having a reason to persevere is the best medicine so see your baby as your light! Good luck x

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I was in really bad after my son was born I really believe I had postpartum Psychosis.

MM mentioned she may have had postpartum psychosis. Well, I am still up (much too high but still functional) but have been so resentful towards all three of my kiddos. I honestly feel annoyed and like they are burdensome much of the time (and I HATE this and also hate to admit this). I hardly want to spend time with them and am often irritated by the baby's cry. I think and feel like I can't be their mom anymore and fear (albeit irrationally) I could walk out on them. I am not sure if this is because I'm likely becoming manic and just don't want to be bothered, if this is normal adjusting to three kiddos with crazy hormones, or if I am losing touch. I am worried. Does it sound like I'm becoming psychotic? Do I need to call my doc (I'm afraid she wil want to hospitalize me)? Or should I wait until I see her again next Thurs? Can I get away with not telling her at all? Opinions please.

[Victoria'smom]

Try hard to remember I know it take a lot but What did she say on Thursday? Who is with you and your kids? Do you have any PRN?

[cashart10]

She did say to try to have someone else with me and the kids but that is not always possible. I am a stay at home mom and my husband works all day. So, the majority of the time it is just me and the kids. I do not have a PRN.