My depression or coping skills are apparently getting worse. Friday, and then also today, all I want to do is stay in bed. There isn't a darn reason I can think of to do anything much. All I've done today is taken a bath and put in a load of laundry. I don't know what to do the rest of the day, or can think of ideas but doubt I will follow through because it just seems all so pointless and unrewarding. It's only 7:48 a.m. and I dread the rest of the day. I know I will not harm myself, but how do I live my life?

What do I do about this? What is wrong with me? Do I call my pdoc tomorrow and tell him? Please help. I don't want to be this way, but I don't know what to do about it. I feel so lost.

[mzunderstood79]

Do you have a family to tend to? That could help motivate you. I feel so unmotivated at times but because I have a family, they are my reason to get up and going even if it leaves me wiped out at the end of the day....

I know that feeling, I am like that when I am depressed too sometimes. Your meds might need adjusting.

[Blue_Bird]

I would let your pdoc know what's going on when you can, that's definitely not a good way to feel. Maybe you just need a med adjustment to help get you out of this depression

Originally Posted by mzunderstood79

Do you have a family to tend to? That could help motivate you. I feel so unmotivated at times but because I have a family, they are my reason to get up and going even if it leaves me wiped out at the end of the day....

No children, but a husband. I rarely cook lately but I always do his laundry and set the table. I look forward to him coming home each day from work, and when we're together I feel safe and comfortable. When this depression started in August, I was better at forcing myself to do things because I believed if I just held on for the 6-8 weeks of the new antidepressant (viibryd), things would get better. It's been 3 months now, and things are getting much worse.

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I would let your pdoc know what's going on when you can, that's definitely not a good way to feel. Maybe you just need a med adjustment to help get you out of this depression

Thanks Blue Bird. I think I will call him tomorrow. I hope he has a workable solution. I just feel like I'm slipping into greater non-functionality. This depression has taken on a life of its own.

How did this happen? I used to work full time as an attorney and my life worked. It all seemed to "work" until that fateful day in August. It's like a switch flipped overnight.

[Zabine]

I feel the same way right now. I just switched up my meds so hopefully it will help at some point. I am sorry you feel like this, I hope your doc can help you....

[wildflowerchild25]

I've barely gotten off the couch today. I can't stay in bed bc I've got a son to care for but believe me I would be there if I could be. I just took half a klonopin and I'm hoping that will reduce my anxiety a bit but I know it won't reduce the depression. I don't know how everyone here handles depression for months. I want to bail and it's only been two weeks. The biggest problem is I know if I stop taking my meds I will feel better because I will go hypomanic. But it will only be temporary. Then mania will take over and everything will go to hell. But right now I almost don't care.

I hope you feel better soon. Try to reward yourself for getting up and doing something. Even if it's just the laundry. Mine is still sitting all over my bed...

[monochromatic]

I get the same way.

Could you motivate yourself to take a nap in the sunshine? Bring a blanket outside or lay in a chair? That always boosts my mood a little, and then I feel that I accomplished at least something.

Well, I managed to keep myself out of bed so far today. It was a damn Hurculean effort to get up and get in that bathtub. My husband knew I was in a very bad place, so we spent virtually the whole day together doing things: walked the dogs a mile, went grocery shopping, I made chili, and then I tagged along with him when he went to tend to his honeybees and pick dogwood sticks (hobby). So it is possible for me to do things when I'm severely depressed.

It's when I'm alone that things go to hell. Tomorrow he'll leave for work at 7:00 a.m. as usual then will not be home until 9:30 or 10:00 p.m. Hoping I can come up with better coping skills than lying in bed feeling depressed. Pretty worried about that possibility.

[monochromatic]

On the plus side, your husband sounds amazing.

My boyfriend doesn't really know what to do when I'm in a bad place. He tries to cheer me up, but in ways I really don't need - like trying to tickle me. I usually snap at him because I'm not in the mood. I know he has great intentions, but "cheering up" is terrible when I"m so low.

Originally Posted by monochromatic

On the plus side, your husband sounds amazing.

My boyfriend doesn't really know what to do when I'm in a bad place. He tries to cheer me up, but in ways I really don't need - like trying to tickle me. I usually snap at him because I'm not in the mood. I know he has great intentions, but "cheering up" is terrible when I"m so low.

Yes, my husband is wonderful and does the best he can to understand my illness(es) and make our marriage work.