[BipolaRNurse]

Well, so much for the idea that I was misdiagnosed......that must've been an early clue that I was ramping up. Should've seen it coming last weekend when I started spending money like there's no tomorrow, LOL! That, and I can't seem to shut up and my husband's looking at me like "WTF are you talking about, I'm not following you". I'm not trying to rearrange the sock drawer at 2 AM but the rest of it's here--the scatter-brained-ness (you'd think I'd know the word for it), the physical agitation, racing thoughts, and I can't stay the **** off the Internet. Oh well. At least I can try to contain the damage before it gets out of control, which is progress of a sort.

((((((((((hugs))))))

Its good you are recognising your symptoms and can work to minimize the damage. Goodluck!

[Manic Trance]

The other day I had a very exciting, jam packed day of work, meeting after meeting after meeting, all things I am excited about. But by the end, I am just sailing, talking a mile a minute, spending money I don't have, racing thoughts, super high energy, won't let anyone get a word in edgewise. When I got home that night, I tried to relax, and eventually I did come down from it, and suddenly I realize I've been hypomanic for some hours, maybe the whole day, maybe days. It's so sneaky how it enters, ideas are so intoxicating, it really feels like your just doing great, until it is too much and then it becomes apparent what has been going on. Ah!
Take care of yourself!
Soon...
MT

[Zabine]

Do you guys ever wonder what bipolar people did before the internet?

[BipolaRNurse]

I think we just went crazy more quietly.

[winter4me]

The stuff of town "characters"

[~Christina]

Call Pdoc Monday am Asap Im glad you have caught this quickly tho.. Burn up the internet between now and then.. Safer than buying socks that you can sort later

[BipolaRNurse]

I think I'm settling down a bit tonight, so I may not have to call my pdoc Monday after all. I didn't really want to anyway, this is just a minor episode and I just can't keep going up on that AP because I never can get the dose back down again once the episode's over with.

Besides, I've got an interview Monday afternoon for a government position as a state surveyor (long-term care facilities). A little hypomania isn't a bad thing when you need confidence in yourself, and mine has been in the dumper since I lost that last big job I had in May. I'll probably slip in a little Vitamin "A" before I go in though, just to keep everything simmered down a bit so I don't come across as TOO confident.

Ah, the life of a bipolar, always walking on a tightrope and trying to balance without falling into the abyss.....I just hope someday there IS a reward for getting through this existence while having to work twice as hard as everyone else for the same things.

[~Christina]

Ohhhhh Good luck on the interview ! Sounds like a good job !

[mzunderstood79]

I am with you on that right now, and I know my friends and family that don't know the dx yet think I am a fruit cake but oh well, I am what I am....

[A Red Panda]

BRNurse - I gotta say.... I always love how you word your posts. They always make me smile!!

Good luck on your interview! And good luck in keeping the hypomania under your thumb!

[AnxietyGirl916]

Hang in there. This too shall pass!

[ultramar]

You have such great insight into what's going on with you -not easy for any of us!

I hear you about the reluctance of upping the AP because afterwards so difficult to come down on it again. Nonetheless, it's a hard decision to make, but you're pushing through this like a champ.

Best of luck with your interview, sounds like a great job!

[BipolaRNurse]

Thank you, all. I'm settling down a bit, finally got to bed at a decent hour and feel almost normal again. We'll see if I can keep a lid on it with the excitement of the interview on Monday!

[BipolaRNurse]

Hey, I learned something new today! Hypomania isn't such a bad thing to take on a job interview.......I ROCKED this thing. First of all, I had absolutely nothing to lose, so I was really relaxed, but I also had this energy that totally filled the room. The man and woman I was interviewing with were friendly to start, but by the time it was over all three of us were really enjoying each other's company. Now we'll see if I go on to the next round of interviews, or if I get voted off the island before I have a chance to shine again.

[BipolaRNurse]

OK, I'm calling my pdoc tomorrow. This is such BS. All this cool stuff that's been happening the past few days coupled with gorgeous fall weather have got me full-on hypomanic and I just can't make myself believe now that it's going to resolved on its own. today I did a full day's worth of yard work in 3 hours and still have energy to burn, I'm not upset about that at all but I also know it's not normal for me. I also can't stop the phsycial agitation.......no I've been here too many times and I know where it's going and I can't stop it on my own.

Damn. Thought I had it under control for a day or two there. I love my pdoc to death but he does get upset when I don't call him about this stuff. Well, the first few days I just thought were really good days, then I realized I was hypo and fought myself to get the right amount of sleep and take better care of myself. It got better for a day or two. I don't want to call for a few days of maybe?? hypo/mania. sometimes you've just got to buckle down and sit on yourself. Unfortuantely I am REALLY over-amped now. Not manic yet. But I'm going to call before I get that way.

[A Red Panda]

The self-awareness you are showing is awesome! Definitely call and let your pdoc know that you can tell it's getting to the point of unmanageable.

[BipolaRNurse]

Yeah. I want to get this under control wihile I still have some self-awareness.....