Help plz

Hi my names Michelle I'm new to this have suffered with depression since I was 14 but I have 3 sons and find it so hard to get motivated but I know I have to my ex left me cuz he dont understand it all I must aggmitt I don't I just know sometimes I'm up sometimes I'm down never on a normal level I shut my self away from the world and sit in the dark and silence and cry I don't know if I have bipolar have done the online tests and keep scoring 56 I have bin diagnosed with manic depression since 14 but I think there might be more to it can any1 help

Welcome to the forum and I'm sorry you're struggling!

Bipolar Disorder used to be called Manic Depression (and I think it's still called 'manic depression' in some other languages/countries), so they are the same thing.

Do you have a psychiatrist who can help you with this?

I refused to see 1 as find it hard talking to people face to face get the shakes and panic and get angry

I am sorry you are struggling, but welcome.

Things have bin hard off late my ex left me after 14years be cuz he couldn't cope with the way I am social services tryed saying I'm mentally unstable my world is falling
Apart

I'm in the uk is that why it's called manic depression not bipolar

Welcome to PC .. Yes Manic depression and Bipolar are the same thing. I understand your trouble seeing a doctor or a Therapist but they understand how it can be so hard and will try to help you stay calm. They can help you if you let them.

There is Hope

Welcome, I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. Drs can help, most know how to talk so we are comfortable, I understand anxiety and panic with strangers. I see a therapist and a psychiatrist and dont know where I'd be without them. ((()))

Thank u I do see my doc but seen some1 be for from the mental Heath team but it made me worse I have me kids to worry about so I need to try