[reesecups]

I'm a little confused. I've been hypo before, but only once when I was aware that is what it was. Until recently...was hypomanic from the Thursday before last and felt a little less on Friday. In fact Friday night, I was a little depressed and fighting the impulse to self-injure. Thought it was over with and would crash. But later Saturday I was fine, felt 'normal' but positive. Got a little disappointed and anxious Saturday evening but didn't stay that way. Do to me,a I felt that the hypomania is over with.

But, last night I did the same thing I've done since I knew that I had become hypo. I went to bed around 9:30pm, my usual time, but was not able to 'shutdown' and sleep until close to midnight. I got up to take a med at 4:30am and thought I would get go back to sleep, but was so energetic that I didn't. My attitude is positive. I'm not upset about not getting a lot of sleep like I usually do with insomnia. Not feeling 'great' but still feeling pretty good.

Am I out of hypomania, or does this sound like I'm still in it? Sorry if this sounds stupid, but I just don't know.

[nbritton]

That's the thing with psychosis, mania and depression, from the perspective of the patient everything is normal. In these situations it's virtually impossible for them to tell they're acting abnormally, because if they knew they were not acting like themselves (from their perspective), they would do something to stop that. It's not until their physiology returns to normal that they realize they were behaving abnormally.

You're probably back to normal now.

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by nbritton

That's the thing with psychosis, mania and depression, from the perspective of the patient everything is normal. In these situations it's virtually impossible for them to tell they're acting abnormally, because if they knew they were not acting like themselves (from their perspective), they would do something to stop that. It's not until their physiology returns to normal that they realize they were behaving abnormally.

You're probably back to normal now.

Thank you. Much appreciate you perspective...

[vans1974]

Hey reesecups, for me if I feel good, I try to enjoy it while it lasts! As long as I can control my temper and other negative impulsive acts, then I find I'm very functional and happy at at hypomanic state! It's only when I feel out of control with my emotions that I'm introuble. But that's also true when I'm depressed or mixed state! Best of luck!!

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by vans1974

Hey reesecups, for me if I feel good, I try to enjoy it while it lasts! As long as I can control my temper and other negative impulsive acts, then I find I'm very functional and happy at at hypomanic state! It's only when I feel out of control with my emotions that I'm introuble. But that's also true when I'm depressed or mixed state! Best of luck!!

I already suffered the impulsivity spending last weekend. Went from having a little extra spending money this month to hardly anything. I thought I was over it until I woke up this morning and now all I want to do is move and do! I like the feeling and I don't currently mind the lack of sleep. My sister just joked she'll know when I go hypo from now on because it's the only time my room gets 'deep cleaned'. I have noticed that I get more impatient, especially while driving. I figured if hypo was so concerning, all the MH Professionals I speak with would not find my attitude so amusing. Lol!

The coming down doesn't worry me right now, though I know that's probably going to happen. But being in group all day twice a week and individual therapy at least once a week, it isn't as if I'm not being monitored.

[vans1974]

Originally Posted by reesecups

I already suffered the impulsivity spending last weekend. Went from having a little extra spending money this month to hardly anything. I thought I was over it until I woke up this morning and now all I want to do is move and do! I like the feeling and I don't currently mind the lack of sleep. My sister just joked she'll know when I go hypo from now on because it's the only time my room gets 'deep cleaned'. I have noticed that I get more impatient, especially while driving. I figured if hypo was so concerning, all the MH Professionals I speak with would not find my attitude so amusing. Lol!

The coming down doesn't worry me right now, though I know that's probably going to happen. But being in group all day twice a week and individual therapy at least once a week, it isn't as if I'm not being monitored.

Hey reesecups- you crack me up! Just enjoy it and make the best of it!

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by vans1974

Hey reesecups- you crack me up! Just enjoy it and make the best of it!

Thanks! Lol! I'm trying to. It's rare that I feel this good and I want to make the most of it!

[reesecups]

I apologize for beating a dead horse. But if I were hypomanic, would I experience a mild depression at night and then still be hypomanic the next morning?

[reesecups]

Update.

Definitely no longer hypomanic. Woke up very depressed Monday but felt a little better after I took a nap in the afternoon. I saw my therp Monday too. I had been told I was rapid cycling and it sounded legit but thing is, I've never been officially diagnosed with bipolar. Just MDD. Even though I can remember hypomanic episodes going back to my late teens/early twenties. And have suffered mostly severe depression from that time as well.

I still think titrating down the AD caused this episode. But I really don't know what to think about the diagnosis when I know what I feel and do. Anyway, I'm feeling okay right now and appreciate everyone's comments. Thanks!