Back after a long time

I have not been on this site in years. I had been managing my bipolar issues very well, except for about two episodes a year. I have been manic for two months and I can't take it anymore. I am home from work today and tomorrow and I have all of next week off to try and quick this things ***.
I've been to the pdoc twice in the last two weeks. Last night I took a new regimen of 100 mg Geodon and 40mg Latuda, along with 1mg Xanax XR. The good thing is that I slept, but I wole up early and just as manic as ever. I can't be still. I totally see why Van Gogh cut his ear off because I cannot for the life of me stop moving!!!! It is driving me bonkers!!!!
I am also completely obsessed that someone at work is going to find out and that I'll lose my job as a music teacher, which I love more than anything, except for my daughter. I am paranoid because people were asking me why I was so jumpy and why I couldn't calm down. The kids were asking about my weird movements that I get from the Geodon. I just feel I can't take it anymore.
Does anyone have any advice they could please share? I am desperate for relief! Do any of you get paranoia? Also, my jaw is killing me. Is that the antipsychotics? Thanks so much for your help.

Sorry to hear! I'm not a pdoc, but I'd take either Geodon or Latuda, but not both at the same time! I'd guess an anti-convulsant like Depakote would help for your paranoia/mania. I'd ck with your doc and pharmacist! Best of luck!

Sorry your back with problems -- but welcome back. I'm very paranoid about work people finding out. I haven't been to my office in 2 months, tomorrows the big day going back. I will lose my job if I don't. Idk much about the meds - my son took geodon I think it did make him jumpy. When I'm hypo I sometimes feel like I'm on high drugs, and will clench my teeth & jaw gets sore without realizing it. It reminds me of certain drugs like coke. But it's hypo/mania. I hope you figure out something that helps, glad you got the time off work.

Call your doctor immediately whenever you are desperate like this. That's what they are there for. If Geodon is causing bad effects you need to either go down on dosage or change to something else. Don't be afraid at work if you can help it. If a supervisor ever wants to talk to you about it, just be honest. I think your job is protected by law. You can't lose a job just because you're having a bad reaction to a drug because you have a medical condition! I relate to Van Gogh too, just bought a poster of Starry Nights and I have a white frame for it. Must still frame it. I love the song "Vincent" by Don McLean. Your doctor is the answer. We all get paranoid at times. Just get help.

Thanks everyone for replying. I am seeing my therapist today. I woke up more calm, but zombie like. I think the meds are kicking in. Still can't stop moving, but I have put the energy into cleaning my house. I have to go to a funeral tomorrow morning and I am worried about it. One of my coworkers passed away. I know I will have to explain why I haven't been at work. I am going to say that I have female problems, lol. That's the best I can do for now. Thanks for the support.