[maureen]

I feel I'm in the midst of a depression and falling deeper. I just made an appointment with my pdoc for Monday. This trigger is the fact that my ex and his wife with my 3 kids just left yesterday to visit his relatives in Pennsylvania. He says it's because his Uncle (who is a Monsignor in Monessen) is dying. I feel so abandoned but more so because I'm the one who dug my own grave by leaving him. I will by be on Thanksgiving with my brother, his wife and son (both my parents are deceased) but I feel very hurt and a little resentment. Due to my ex now being a ?millionaire, I feel he's always trying to buy my kids away from me. This past summer he took my middle son and daughter to England because he had business in England.
My solution to this is I'm not going to pay my storage unit and just like a typical bipolar I'm going to buy some books, and set up my laptop I just bought to make DVD's of our family. I realize I sound like I'm rambling but 7 months ago 1 of 2 people stole 3 of my childhood photo albums (no negatives); they knew I was just going to have them scanned on my brother's computer. So as all us bipolars must do what we have to make a positive out of a negative so we have already made a CD of the remaining photos and I'm going to convert super 8's and 8 mm's to DVD's to prevent myself from obsessing about this anymore. In addition, I'm going to make some 16 by 20's of remainging photos of my family. I woke up so depressed this morning that I had to come up with something while my kids are away. I will pay my storage (my furniture from my former house) on the first even though they will lock it up and I will have to pay double. But it's worth it to ward off this depression. I even have bought some 70's music on some CD's to be the background music to the super 8's my dad filmed i from 70 -75.
I didn't mean to go into so much detail, but both of the suspects are denying that they took them and after a lot of reflection I realize that each of them would have a motive. One of the suspects is my ex-husbands wife; the other I'll go into at another time. After these albums were stolen I cried for a month. I won't say I'm healed but I still can't believe that any human being with a conscience could commit such an act (only a sociopath would do a thing like that) Anyway, I'm going to use the money in a productive way(working on these DVD's) hopefully to put this on going depression to a halt.
Maureen

[biplol]

I'm so sorry Maureen, you are going thru such rough patch right now.
I hope you can have a good thanksgiving and remember to PM me anytime.
~tons of hugs~