[manic_me]

Today will be an interesting day. I worked out, did my makeup and all the things that are supposed to help the depression cycle but idk. I have homework and other stuff to do but I have no motivation. I just want to sleep(only slept 3hrs. last night. I want to sleep all day and be up all night!) or stare at the wall all day. I don't really want to be around people because I'm easily irritated today and the thought of being around people makes my heart pound and race... But withdrawal from people is (from what I've heard) is worse for the depression?. But to try and be optimistic, I guess, at least I'm trying.

[catsrhelm]

Originally Posted by manic_me

Today will be an interesting day. I worked out, did my makeup and all the things that are supposed to help the depression cycle but idk. I have homework and other stuff to do but I have no motivation. I just want to sleep(only slept 3hrs. last night. I want to sleep all day and be up all night!) or stare at the wall all day. I don't really want to be around people because I'm easily irritated today and the thought of being around people makes my heart pound and race... But withdrawal from people is (from what I've heard) is worse for the depression?. But to try and be optimistic, I guess, at least I'm trying.

Withdrawal from people can make depression worse. At least you are reaching out on-line, so that makes things not as bad as total withdrawal.

[manic_me]

Yeah I noticed myself starting to do it over the past few days so I decided online people is better than no people, and on here people can more easily understand what I'm talking about. My "friends" don't have a clue. Thanks for the positivity 😏

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[x_BabyG_x]

fresh air always does me good. and if you can push it, although it seems like the worst thing in the world right now... socialise.

[blackwhitered]

Originally Posted by catsrhelm

Withdrawal from people can make depression worse. At least you are reaching out on-line, so that makes things not as bad as total withdrawal.

Unless you're an introvert, in which case forcing yourself to be around people (especially people you're not close to) can make things worse...

[dubblemonkey]

Originally Posted by manic_me

Today will be an interesting day. I worked out, did my makeup and all the things that are supposed to help the depression cycle but idk. I have homework and other stuff to do but I have no motivation. I just want to sleep(only slept 3hrs. last night. I want to sleep all day and be up all night!) or stare at the wall all day. I don't really want to be around people because I'm easily irritated today and the thought of being around people makes my heart pound and race... But withdrawal from people is (from what I've heard) is worse for the depression?. But to try and be optimistic, I guess, at least I'm trying.

that was beautiful

[manic_me]

thank you everyone for the positive words and advice=] . As the day progressed I got worse and worse (hence my late replies) but I decided to just sit outside with do distractions and at the least do my homework. I'm still down (if not more so after my "family" forgot about me today) but we have to remind ourselves that just doing something is a huge accomplishment as the temptation to do nothing is so easy to fall into. I hope one day I can help y'all as y'all have helped me. You guys reminded me people do understand and care, which pulled me up enough to pick up my homework. Thanks again <3

[Noodles_320]

I understand not wanting to be around people. Something I found helpful (in a weird sorta way), is I like to go to the mall and just walk around. So I am around people, but don't have to interact as if I were hanging out with a friend.

[manic_me]

I don't do well in groups. While that is a great idea it actually makes me have a mini panic attack and paranoid the whole time. I have terrible social anxiety especially around large groups of people which makes not withdrawing from people difficult. But your idea is great =]

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[Noodles_320]

I totally understand, I went through a period where I could not travel to large city's. I would totally freak out and have major panic attacks. I somehow turned it into a "game", to have the comfort of being around people, but not having to interact with them.

[manic_me]

When I'm medicated I can do things like that. The anxiety and panic is still there but manageable. I just currently can't afford treatment =/. But that is really good advice that I'll try and remember when I have to go to the store tomorrow 😏 (I've been putting it off for weeks!)

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[Noodles_320]

The other thing is humor....I like to do stupid stuff like stand in front of Barnes and Noble...as people walk by I tell them I am lost and need directions to Barnes and Noble. Embrace the creativity of our twisted view of the world.

[bipolarbearinthere]

Originally Posted by manic_me

Today will be an interesting day. I worked out, did my makeup and all the things that are supposed to help the depression cycle but idk. I have homework and other stuff to do but I have no motivation. I just want to sleep(only slept 3hrs. last night. I want to sleep all day and be up all night!) or stare at the wall all day. I don't really want to be around people because I'm easily irritated today and the thought of being around people makes my heart pound and race... But withdrawal from people is (from what I've heard) is worse for the depression?. But to try and be optimistic, I guess, at least I'm trying.

I get this way all the time. And honestly even though they say that withdrawal from people isn't necessarily a good thing: sometimes I just need time to myself. I try to be social but sometimes it's just better if I take time out for myself in the day (work out, shower, makeup, listen to music, write in my blog, etc) and leave the social life to another day.

[bipolarbearinthere]

Originally Posted by manic_me

When I'm medicated I can do things like that. The anxiety and panic is still there but manageable. I just currently can't afford treatment =/. But that is really good advice that I'll try and remember when I have to go to the store tomorrow 😏 (I've been putting it off for weeks!)

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I'm currently unemployed (but can't seem to hold a job anyway), I have no money saved, I'm in debt and and yet somehow I have found a program that allows me to still afford therapy and meds. My psych office is on a sliding scale which helps immensely, but they also have programs that you can sign up for that can pay for your medication. Keep your chin up and look at your options. Sometimes you feel unable when all you have to do is open the right door!