I'm feeling super manic right now- or maybe really hypomanic? So far I've convinced myself that I don't have bipolar disorder and should just take up yoga instead. Then I realized that I probably do have bipolar disorder because I've been so freaking happy today. Then I wrote someone to tell them how much I admire them and how much their friendship means to me. Then I repressed the urge to write everyone I know and tell them how much I love them. Then I cut my own hair. (It turned out pretty well, actually). And now I wish there were people to talk to because I feel happy and social.

But, underneath the happiness, I also feel a little out of control, and that feeling is not pleasant. How do you handle a manic episode? I could self medicate with sleeping pills or just let it run its course...

I visited my GP today, but she said that she didn't feel comfortable prescribing medication for bipolar disorder. So I guess I'll just have to wait until my psychiatrist visit in May. I hope my mood doesn't get too bad before then.

I do that sort of thing 'stable'. Sometimes I am just happy. Not for a little while now though. I wrote texts to all my friends yesterday telling them how much I love and appreciate them and Im more low than anything right now. I do yoga and cut my own hair at times, none of which indicate a manic episode for me.

[hamster-bamster]

It sounds like you need a pdoc to prescribe 5 mg of Zyprexa to you and instruct you on how to take it PRN. With luck, you may be able to be otherwise unmedicated. This is not what I am doing now, but I plan to try it - no daily meds + Zyprexa as needed.

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I understand that any of these things can be done by someone who is not hypomanic, but for me, yesterday, I was very much upped while I did these things. I felt extremely good and euphoric and I did all of these things in about a 20 minute period. Plus it's a change from my usual behavior- normally I would not cut my own hair or write friends to tell them how I feel about them. I tend to be very guarded with my feelings towards people.

Today I feel hyper and happy but not euphoric. More back to normal, I guess. I'll have to look into the Zyprexa. I think no matter what the doctor prescribes, though, I'll have to stay on something for depression. The depression gets really severe. Also, I have had truly severe manic episodes in the past where I became almost incoherent and did really stupid things that I'm not going to mention here. Sigh. I understand that yesterday wasn't anything severe. I just wanted somewhere to talk about how I was feeling because it was kind of a pleasant, euphoric hypomania- which is really different than the severe, unpleasant mania I've experienced in the past.

[gris212]

Get some sleep, if you feel out of control, get yourself more stable by getting enough sleep. That's the best thing that works for me, it helps me feel more stable. Talk to someone if you can't get in to see your pdoc. What about a therapist? Talk to a friend or a family member so they can keep an eye on you.
Being manic is great feeling but not when you don't feel in control.

The happiness is great, but what can you do to take control of what's to come?