[jesusplay]

I feel really depressed, agitated and annoyed.

My therapist set me up to see a pdoc today because she feels my meds need to be adjusted, he called and I told him I'm not leaving the house. I just don't care, I don't want any new pills or any new side effects I'm content with this depression. I don't wanna leave the house, and I think I'm gonna cancel my next therapy appointment. Therapy doesn't help my bipolar, my moods are my moods, you can't change lead to gold. It's all pointless. I'm managing my suicidal thoughts. I have a constant headache, I'm ready to go to sleep. I jut want it all to end, no I'm not going to hurt myself, but I think about it constantly, like a craving for chocolate I can't control.

[Hbomb0903]

I've been there before and if you need to wallow there for a time then do it. But remember that you have to make the decision that you WANT to feel better. All the meds in the world can't help you if you would rather be depressed than face the world. I know because I suffer from this problem.

[~Christina]

It gets old fighting upsteam all the time ..sometimes its ok to just float for a while ..

[Standup2me]

Sometimes when we stand still we learn the most about ourselves