[jones2281]

Today is a beautiful day, 75 degrees, sun shinning...went to church Easter egg hunt with my precious daughter...husband mowing grass..everyone is happy...and then there is me....crying, wanting to hide in my closet (which by the way is a big walk in closet ) and cry....??? why do I act like that???? oh yes..I'm rapid cycle bi-polar...and I am cycling fast today...I'm on a rollercoaster ride with no brakes...cry...laugh...cry..laugh..cry harder..laugh...I want to get off of this ride..but apparently I have a life-long ticket that decides the ride??!!

[yumi]

Hugs. I feel the same way. When they were passing out tickets for this so called life, Im pretty sure I got a counterfeit one, well...its defective that is for sure. I will never understand my mind or why I was cursed this way it sucks. It really sucks. you are not alone. I hope you are able to get better, you deserve to get better.

[CaptainChaos79]

You are not alone. I am not bipolar...I have ptsd and sometimes I do not understand what sets me off. I got real lucky and found a primary care doc who is a magician with women's health and psych meds. He put me on a mood stabalizer...remeron....when SSRIs of every type had pretty much failed. It changed everything about my life. 1 medication was all it took but it took years to find the right one or rather the right doctor I guess. My advice is to keep trying. Most meds you gotta stick with for at least 3-5 months before u know for certain if u are gonna see a result or not. If not...on to the next option and encourage your doc to try out of the ordinary options if the ordinary fails because thats what worked for me in the end....you never know....