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Old Apr 22, 2014, 09:12 AM
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Had some strong suicidal ideation last night. I feel like this depressive episode will never end . . .
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Old Apr 22, 2014, 10:24 AM
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..didn't sleep too well last night, even with the meds; at one point I felt my heart beating faster and faster, then I felt that my body was trembling-it was scary
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Old Apr 22, 2014, 01:53 PM
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Well...so much for going to my meeting at the pDocs'. Got an IBS attack with bad abdominal cramps and just couldn't "stomach" the long journey across town to go to the appointment, so I called and cancelled.

Now the trick is to not feel guilty for not going, and be nice to myself for the rest of the afternoon/evening.
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Old Apr 22, 2014, 01:57 PM
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I am just starting a new med called viibryd. I have been in a pretty bad depression for a few months. Im hoping for some relief.

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Old Apr 22, 2014, 02:23 PM
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I am just starting a new med called viibryd. I have been in a pretty bad depression for a few months. Im hoping for some relief.

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Old Apr 22, 2014, 02:33 PM
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I feel numb

A kind of nothingness
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Old Apr 22, 2014, 02:35 PM
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Thank you tigersassy gives me hope.

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Old Apr 22, 2014, 08:47 PM
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Last night I made some really poor choices and could have gotten myself into a world of new problems. I don't know why I'm so lucky, but I managed to get out of the situation relatively unscathed.

I've been feeling pretty even. Good even. I've been doing a lot of mindfulness practice and being thankful for what I have, every chance I think of it. I hope everyone is doing okay or better. I'm a little anxious today, but I think after what happened last night I am normal to feel that way. Definitely not like it was and for that I'm so grateful.
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Old Apr 22, 2014, 09:03 PM
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Feeling worried ... the diizzy-vertigo-spinning experience is increasing along with the disequilibrium ... and the tremors. I don't want to live like this.
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Old Apr 22, 2014, 11:32 PM
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feeling pretty stressed and depressed. tired of feeling like this all the time
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Old Apr 22, 2014, 11:44 PM
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This is the second day on 10mg Olanzapine. My mood was cycling between euphoria to depression to agitation. I also have been anxious. But so far an improvement from the past.
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Old Apr 23, 2014, 12:23 AM
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I have to talk to my pdoc Thursday about my meds, I just got on the scale for the first time in 3 weeks and I've gained almost 10 lbs, plus my hair is falling out in clumps. I don't know if it was the added seroquel or the depakote/ seroquel combo but I can't continue it. That's what put the weight on me back in 2011. I had lost quite a lot of it over 2013. The seroquel isn't putting me to sleep anyway which is why I was taking it. Grrr. On the plus side I didn't have a spring episode! Fat and bald or crazy...some choice.
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Old Apr 23, 2014, 12:30 AM
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I'm feeling a lot better today after crashing pretty hard over the weekend. It's amazing how much a good night of sleep can help. My stopping Saphris experiment was a failure... at least I learned that stopping it cold like that is a bad idea. I will probably try to come off it again at some point, but in a more gradual way, and if possible with medical supervision if my pdoc will ever agree to it (unlikely). I am very grateful for the support from PC over the when I wasn't doing well, and I'm glad I stayed home and didn't get myself into any trouble. I got crazy pretty quickly with no sleep, scary.
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Old Apr 23, 2014, 12:40 AM
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I'm feeling a lot better today after crashing pretty hard over the weekend. It's amazing how much a good night of sleep can help. My stopping Saphris experiment was a failure... at least I learned that stopping it cold like that is a bad idea. I will probably try to come off it again at some point, but in a more gradual way, and if possible with medical supervision if my pdoc will ever agree to it (unlikely). I am very grateful for the support from PC over the when I wasn't doing well, and I'm glad I stayed home and didn't get myself into any trouble. I got crazy pretty quickly with no sleep, scary.
This is so true! In my case even 8 hours is not enough when I get 5 and a half in the night and try to catch up sometime in the morning.
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Old Apr 23, 2014, 02:21 AM
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My sleep is all messed up, I can't seem to get enough or stay asleep long enough, Really need to talk to my pdoc, I built up a tolerance to the Trazedone, where two pills used to knock me out, three is just not doing it.
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Old Apr 23, 2014, 04:07 AM
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No I haven't taken my meds for 2 nights and here I am at 5am still not sleeping. I took benadryl for my sinus and .25mg klonopin an hour ago. Nothing happening. Of course it's the first night in 3 weeks I've been home and in my own bed. Grrr.
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Old Apr 23, 2014, 05:59 AM
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Slept for three hours. I'm absolutely terrified of goin to my program or even leaving the house. I am afraid that people can see what's happening inside my head. And I am afraid that they will call the cops. I've never been so scared in my life. I don't know wtf is happening.

I also feel like my therapist is trying to control me because she forced me to go to partial care. I can't sit through a whole day of this ****.
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Old Apr 23, 2014, 06:21 AM
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I was doing well today. Tonight bad feelings are back.
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Pretty much the same as usual: an other day of depression and my usual routine. Please day, go quickly somehow and end!
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Old Apr 23, 2014, 09:55 AM
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Last night I layed down at midnight and at 5 am was still awake. I started to dose off around 6 and would wake every 15 min almost like a shock or scared feeling each time. I just started on viibryd and also on welbutrin. I have never had luck with APs so I am not on one nor mood stabilizer. I quit my pdoc last year and only see my fsmily physician. Im beginning to wonder if he realizes im on two anti dep and nothing rlse and I am bp1. I have no faith in docs. Rush us in and out in 10 min here. I feel like none of the docs I have seen really look into my past just whats in front of them. Im feeling weird today. Prob the new med and lack of sleep.

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Old Apr 23, 2014, 12:11 PM
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I woke up mildly depressed. I think it is due to getting up with only 6 hours of sleep. I have had it worse.
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Old Apr 23, 2014, 03:20 PM
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Meditated today for the first time in months. So I feel good about that.

Otherwise, though, it's been more of the same -- sleeping too much, depressed.
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It is raining heavily today

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I've been looking for you guys !!! Ok yes I'm that aloof that it took me this long to figure out where the new thread was... So let me catch you up on everything... Hmmm. Ok that's about it. Nothing new.

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I skipped my NAMI support group tonight and told my therapist from another (non-BP related) group that I didn't want to attend last Tuesday evening, either. I don't normally blow off these things like that but sometimes, the whole processing thing feels more intense than my symptoms
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