[PoorPrincess]

A bit better for a bit calmer.
Still horrified at what all, whatever, that is going awry with my body from hair to heels.
Just calmer enough to not be frantic in my mind over it all.

[tigersassy]

Doing a bit better after the depression bite on sunday. I've been improving the depression isn't gone, and it sometimes rears its ugly head worse. But i'm content with slow improvements the depression blitzes is another matter though. Can't wait til friday. 4 day weekend hopefully camping and psychiatrist appt. Yay!

Tig

Still in depression - - so nothing new on mood front. Going boating with my husband today. I doubt it will help my depression, but it will be good to get out of the house and do something different. It will be a tad cold on the water, but thank God the sun is shining, so that should help.

[r010159]

Woke up feeling well. I must stop thinking about what makes fear inside me. I have done everything I can to help myself. I now need to lay back and relax.

[BlackSheep79]

I can feel the Latuda kicking in and I don't like it one bit. I feel sluggish, not upbeat like I was on the Haldol. As you know, no caffeine or sugar, so good luck for my next 10 hour shift at work, yeh. I will keep taking it and see how I do, but I will state again I do not like it.

[Standup2me]

I am doing okay today
Coming to the realization that I need to start
looking after my physical health too

Im a little anxious today, again know what caused it. Work issue last night, one of the workers failed to turn up but did not inform me. So now I am worried I will get blamed for her failure... I wont, it will be ok. Its just a matter of using my CBT to squash this anxiety flat. I am having some minor teething problems with the new position at work, but I hope on friday I can get there and sort through these issues. Getting there slowly slowly, just working at every thought.

Therapy again today. This will be the last week of twice weekly sessions for a while. I am really enjoying having two seperate therapists, they approach different issues with different methods and I am seeing results.

Im back to being addicted to the forums though... I will be very careful this time not to wander off the BP forum as I get so sad and frustrating reading other sections struggles. I really like the BP section with so many that can relate, advise and comfort.

[charo224488]

Still just an empty shell, going through the motions. Although I have been thinking a lot about death lately, so perhaps I'm sliding into a depression. Super.

[Roblovescats]

Originally Posted by charo224488

Still just an empty shell, going through the motions. Although I have been thinking a lot about death lately, so perhaps I'm sliding into a depression. Super.

SUPER Hugs

Sent from the dark side of the moon

[tigersassy]

Trying to get myself spiritually centered. Started trying things again. I'm doing ok I guess. Feeling better than sunday. I can't stop thinking about my 4 day weekend coming up. So ready for it.

Tig

Seemingly interminable depressive episode continues. Wondering when this will end and how I will continue to make it, day after day . . . Wish the damn meds would work the way they're supposed to!

[Standup2me]

Tig, you have always given me such great advice, and I thank you for that.
Today I am feeling very grateful for things in my life

[Hbomb0903]

First therapy appointment today. I'm not feeling "bad" or "down", just not really feeling anything. This in-between feeling is maddening to me and I don't know what to do to get my fire back.

[wickedlovely1]

Hi it's wicked,haven't slept in a few days,daughters disappointed in me. I can't help my manic phases.I'm not even tired. I've decided to finally get a job as easy one so out doesn't stress me out. I'm heart broken,she wants to move out. I don't know what I'd do with out her. As for my significant other I want him out but he will not leave.I'm thinking and thinking how much I really dislike him. I'm tired of him using us. Any suggestions?

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[redfaux]

Almost had a full blown episode at work today boss was kinda freaking out so right before I left I told her about my diagnosis I don't feel like she would fire me for it she worked very hard to get me into my position but I'm depressed and upset and hurt so I'm scared that I made a huge mistake but I was seconds away from walking out and saying I'm done which is not ok on either end I love my job and I'm her favorite and she's been my biggest cheerleader in my job I just thought she needed a heads up ><

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[Notnrml85]

In feeling mixed and bat **** crazy. I'm suicidal and I don't want to go inpatient, but I've also been off meds since feb. I haven't eaten much all day and I just took 3mg of klonopin. Do hopefully I'll just be half asleep and out for the rest of the day instead of wondering which would be the most effective and painless way to end my life.

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[wickedlovely1]

I always love a good party

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[Talanic]

Still pretty depressed today... I see my pdoc tomorrow though... So just gotta make it through the rest of the day.

[Roblovescats]

I wish I could have a koala bear as a pet.

Sent from the dark side of the moon

[wickedlovely1]

I wish I had batteries for my pet

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[Curiosity77]

My day was OK. Work was slow, so the day was long. Then productive and confusing therapy session at the end of the day. Feeling generally dissatisfied with life, because so much seems so meaningless and senseless. I feel good when I am helping my patients, but I feel pretty broken when I'm on my own time. Maybe some people are just not meant to be happy

It's been hot. Do.not.like. Then last night my hip bursitis acted up something fierce. I haven't been reduced to having to drag that leg for a long long time (stupid useless cortisone shot a week ago…). Fortunately, rest (a whole night of sleep! Woohoo.) brought it around pretty well, so I was able to go to work. Energy's been running just a little bit intense lately. Managing to have some nights at least with a more normal amount of sleep though. All hail modern chemistry.
Except for useless cortisone.

Originally Posted by Roblovescats

I wish I could have a koala bear as a pet.

Sent from the dark side of the moon

You might not want them when you find out all the diseases they have. Plus they growl, bite and scratch. Would not be my choice for a pet! Ponies are MUCH nicer

My day was pretty productive. I got a lot done at work. And it finally clicked why I was feeling so crazy this week and not sleeping well - full moon! Now I feel better, I wasnt really going crazy it was just related to the moon again Next week will be much better Looking forward to it!

[r010159]

I helped my daughter with a project all night long! Oh how I would of liked her to have done this earlier!

Depression lingers. Feeling particularly lonely today but will not be around people until I go to the noon AA meeting. Husband is gone fishing until about 3 p.m., then it's out to dinner with him and another couple. The loneliness is just crushing the life out of me. Do not like it! It's not like doing an activity and distracting myself helps either. The depression and loneliness is virtually always there.