[Alone & confused]

If you are here this means that I WAS FINALLY SUCCESSFUL after many many epic failures- to to create a place that I can go to dump my emotional baggage. feel free to leave yours here if you want. I will be spending a lot of time here, just to empty out my crowded head.

[gayleggg]

You have come to the right place. Just pick a forum and get that emotional baggage out of your head.

[Alone & confused]

Woohoooo! Elation !! I DID IT!!!
Funny how something so trivial, & lame & maybe even a little pathetic, can be a monumental victory! Now I have a place to "sync" the trapped thoughts & make room for the new worries of the day. It just now occurred to me, that I deliberately hold on to every thought, worry or fear or doubt, for fear that I might lose a memory that is important. And by doing so, I've ended up holding on to a bunch of JUNK that I don't need! Ha, I'm a worry hoarder! New revelation for me. Maybe I can get my own reality show?

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

You have come to the right place. Just pick a forum and get that emotional baggage out of your head.

It's already working for me! I feel liberated! I've always had to find ways to clear my head.
Everything from diaries, to poetry, letters that I never intended to send, when I had a computer, I would create files to compartmentalize my every thought. I still from time to time, find old notebooks that I jotted things down in. I've got them everywhere because I guess I hoard them too. Thanks for stopping by, & feel free to come back anytime!

[Alone & confused]

currently experiencing technical difficulties. was an able to take the group hug out of the middle of the word too!

[Alone & confused]

A few quick thoughts before I forget;

Worry is the cancer of the mind.
If left untreated, it will consume you.

Mental note; consider changing password and username it's too long to have to keep incessantly re entering- even though I never log out for that very reason.

[Alone & confused]

New entry:
I wonder if it's possible to be obsessive compulsive over feeling a like you have to hold on to your EVERY THOUGHT or else you'll lose your memory?

[Alone & confused]

New entry:
I wonder if it's possible to be obsessive compulsive over feeling a like you have to hold on to your EVERY THOUGHT or else you'll lose your memory?

[x_BabyG_x]

Have you tried blogging? It helped me loads!

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[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by x_BabyG_x

Have you tried blogging? It helped me loads!

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

No, I thought about it but decided not to. The reason for this is because me & technology don't get along. I have a VERY SHORT attention span, short term memory loss, trouble commiting things to long term, & if given too many options, I get indecisive & confused, & have panic attacks ex. So, I have avoided anything to do with the internet until this yr when I finally upgraded my phone against my better judgement. Now I'm playing catch-up. Lol

[Alone & confused]

"Dear Diary", today, for SOME STUPID REASON, I actually thought I'd be able to wash my clothes so I could take a shower, and MAYBE find time to go to the damn doctor to (1) inform her that she's never faxed my bi polar meds to the pharmacy, (2) ask if she's ready to send me for an MRI for my back, (3)talk to her about these "migraines", and (4) find out if this illness I've been sick with FOR WEEKS NOW is something SERIOUS like pneumonia! But WHY WOULD I THINK I'D EVER have time to take care of the one who takes care of everyone else?? I hate to think what would happen to "the World" if I weren't here! It would be catastrophic! God Forbid I should be healthy enough or Sane enough to deal with everyone & everything! That would be unspeakably tragic!!

[vjdragonfly]

I have worried obsessively in the past about loosing my memory (didn't help I worked in an Alzheimer's facility). For many years I took a ton of pictures and had to arrange them in chronological order and label dates and names out of terror I would not remember. I still keep pictures in order, but I do not put names on them any more. Therapy has helped me a lot . I also used to be a MAJOR worry wart, my mind always went to the worst possible scenario. Glad that is mostly a thing of the past.

Glad you feel free enough to post here.

[bazzinga1990]

Originally Posted by Alone & confused

If you are here this means that I WAS FINALLY SUCCESSFUL after many many epic failures- to to create a place that I can go to dump my emotional baggage. feel free to leave yours here if you want. I will be spending a lot of time here, just to empty out my crowded head.

Go right on ahead were here for ya

[bazzinga1990]

We need more threads like this one

~Ashley~

[Alone & confused]

Tomorrow is gonna SUCK!!! TRUANCY COURT over ONE DAMN DOCTORS NOTE that I don't have! I don't HAVE IT because I KNEW IT WAS A STOMACHE VIRUS that the Dr wouldn't do anything about! And I KNEW THIS because my son caught it from My Grand Kids & the Dr didn't do anything for them!! PLUS, THE SCHOOL SENT HIM HOME SICK! So tell me WHY AM I HAVING TO GO TO COURT OVER THIS??? If people weren't afraid of this happening to THEM, they would PROBABLY STOP SENDING THEIR KIDS BACK TO SCHOOL TOO SOON AFTER AN ILLNESS & WOULDN'T KEEP SPREADING GERMS BACK & FORTH!
I AM PISSED OFF BEYOND ALL RECOGNITION! AND I'M STILL SICK WITH THIS "DEATH VIRUS" THAT HAS BEEN MAKING ROUND AFTER ROUND THROUGH MY WHOLE FAMILY!! I hope the judge & all his clerks & officers get sick from dragging my *** up there! See how much fun THEY all have trying to get rid of it WITHOUT CALLING IN!!

[Alone & confused]

Well here we go! 6:44am and I'm already in a bad mood & haven't even got outta bed yet! Oh yeah, this is going to be a BAD DAY! I HOPE I don't go to jail for contempt of court for "getting smart" with the judge! I'm sick as a Dog! My moods have been HIGHLY unstable lately! I hope I can keep myself calm!

[Alone & confused]

Well, that went better than I expected! Got a new court date & school will almost be over by then! What a DILLHOLE I had to deal with though! He wrote March 10th as todays date & it's the 13th! AAAHHHHH I just "love" dealing with incompetent/ air-headed authority figures!

[bazzinga1990]

I cut whenever I'm down upset angry sad mad the fact is is I can't stop. Hoping that my therapy will eventually help me to stop and I'm reading some books on cutting and how to stop.

~Ashley~

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by bazzinga1990

I cut whenever I'm down upset angry sad mad the fact is is I can't stop. Hoping that my therapy will eventually help me to stop and I'm reading some books on cutting and how to stop.

~Ashley~

Good luck! Can you identify Why you feel the need to cut? Or exactly what it is about cutting that "makes you feel better"? (for lack of better words) Or what "drives" you to do it?

[bazzinga1990]

Originally Posted by Alone & confused

Good luck! Can you identify Why you feel the need to cut? Or exactly what it is about cutting that "makes you feel better"? (for lack of better words) Or what "drives" you to do it?

Not sure one reason is I can't cry so when I cut I can sometimes cry afterthat. But other then that I'm not really sure of anything anymore

~Ashley~

[Alone & confused]

Ok, latest pet peeve.......my mood changed trying to "change mood" the other day so now I have no mood set! I USED TO know how to change it......don't know what happened. Funny how life's little irritations can be like the tiniest snowflakes; if there are too much of them, they can accumulate into an impassable obstacle.

[Alone & confused]

I AM SO PISSED OFF that I could very well make the 5 o'clock news today!! OH MY GOD I'VE HAD ENOUGH!! My life is IMPOSSIBLE!! (Webgoji, if you're reading this I know my Caps button is stuck, but y'all can't hear me screaming so I'm using caps & !!!! ALOT!) THIS IS RIDICULOUS! I AM LIVING THE IMPOSSIBLE LIFE! I NEED A VA-CA FROM THE CRA-CRA!!! I'm starting to think my MI is not the problem! That MY LIFE is the problem! I think ANYONE, normal or not, would react the same way if they had to put up with the INSANITY THAT IS MY LIFE! It's only 8:30 am & I've already had more BS go wrong than some people would have to deal with in a day! There is not ONE DAMN THING going in a positive direction in my life, and I'm about to draw some attention to this F-D UP SITUATION!! SOMETHING IS GOING TO HAVE TO CHANGE! Wish me luck.

[Alone & confused]

I hate men! I hate life! I hate loving someone and knowing they will never love me the same way! I hate not being able to trust anyone, rather it's my own inability to trust or the other person for being untrustworthy! I hate knowing that i will probably die, never knowing what it's like to truly live! And i hate facebook with an unbridled passion!!! It just gives me one more reason to be suspicious of my boyfriend!! I hate his relationship with all of his friends! I even hate his friends at the moment!!! And i hate all of the hate i feel inside!!! Why in the hell am i even here?? I serve no purpose except to suffer!

[r010159]

Originally Posted by Alone & confused

A few quick thoughts before I forget;

Worry is the cancer of the mind.
If left untreated, it will consume you.

Mental note; consider changing password and username it's too long to have to keep incessantly re entering- even though I never log out for that very reason.

How true! I have much to be worried about but nothing I can do about it right now.

[moodycow]

Originally Posted by Alone & confused

I hate men! I hate life! I hate loving someone and knowing they will never love me the same way! I hate not being able to trust anyone, rather it's my own inability to trust or the other person for being untrustworthy! I hate knowing that i will probably die, never knowing what it's like to truly live! And i hate facebook with an unbridled passion!!! It just gives me one more reason to be suspicious of my boyfriend!! I hate his relationship with all of his friends! I even hate his friends at the moment!!! And i hate all of the hate i feel inside!!! Why in the hell am i even here?? I serve no purpose except to suffer!

thank you for this there was much nodding going on whilst reading !!!!)