Well it's been a few days since I last posted anything. I've been fighting for a couple of weeks. I am tired of fighting.
I've gained 30 pounds since October when I started Depashit. Recently bumped up to 4 a day. My moods are not really any better than before starting the medicine.

So I've got to unwind. I am tired of god damn living. Tired of breathing, living, eating, people, and all of the f'in ******** that goes along with this thing some people call life.

Please pray with me that my 190/112 blood pressure very soon relieves me from this god damn life of hell.

[Talanic]

Don't give up! You will find the right combo of meds. I know things are tough (we've all been there) but once you find the right combo things will be a lot better. You will make it! We're all here to help each other. If you feel like you might hurt yourself please feel free to message me or go to the hospital. Some day you will look back and yes it will be a tough time in your life, but you'll be happy you made it through. Just focus on getting better and taking care of yourself.

Originally Posted by Talanic

Don't give up! You will find the right combo of meds. I know things are tough (we've all been there) but once you find the right combo things will be a lot better. You will make it! We're all here to help each other. If you feel like you might hurt yourself please feel free to message me or go to the hospital. Some day you will look back and yes it will be a tough time in your life, but you'll be happy you made it through. Just focus on getting better and taking care of yourself.

Thanks, but that's the problem. i do not want to make it. I am done. Why do people who do not care anymore have to be forced to stay in this sinking ship of life?

[TheatreKid]

Because bipolar makes you look at life through a lens that distorts everything and makes you feel things that aren't true. Because if the doctors let you check out now, you will never know what it's like to make it through and wind up on the other side amazed and thankful that you survived.

This is bipolar. You're not alone here, we fight this battle every day.

Originally Posted by TheatreKid

Because bipolar makes you look at life through a lens that distorts everything and makes you feel things that aren't true. Because if the doctors let you check out now, you will never know what it's like to make it through and wind up on the other side amazed and thankful that you survived.

This is bipolar. You're not alone here, we fight this battle every day.

They will let me check out because they cannot stop me.

[Marshellette]

Inquire about that high blood pressure, omega 3's can lower it or Lovaza. Depakote levels should be tested, it is a salt known as sodium valproate and can raise your blood pressure. When going through hell, keep going-Winston Churchill (A prime minister who labeled his own depression The Black Dog).

Originally Posted by Marshellette

Inquire about that high blood pressure, omega 3's can lower it or Lovaza. Depakote levels should be tested, it is a salt known as sodium valproate and can raise your blood pressure. When going through hell, keep going-Winston Churchill (A prime minister who labeled his own depression The Black Dog).

That's just it. I'm not depressed. I'm fed up.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I hear you. I'm ****ing fed up too. I've had enough and I'm past done with all of it. I don't have answers but I can relate.