[icinggurl]

I find going to bed at night terrifying and I don't even know what I'm scared of. Its not like I have lots of nightmares. I just can't figure out how to deal/cope with this problem, because everybody has to sleep. Anyone else deal with this?

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my psymptoms are a lot worse at night, so from that perspective, yes, it's scary

i also sleep very little, so nights are tough

[Standup2me]

Sometimes I am afraid to go to bed because I've had a really good day
and I am afraid of what tomorrow will bring

[Angry1541]

I wouldn't say I am afraid of sleep, I just hate that I have to sleep...there's so much I wanna do, but not enough time in the day...sleep seems like wasted time sometimes.

[TheatreKid]

I get anxiety at bedtime and I don't know why, either. It started out as just a dislike of sleep because it took me forever to fall asleep and I hated lying there just thinking and not sleeping. Recently, I've been getting a racing/pounding heart when I'm lying in bed at night and trouble catching my breath, and I don't know why. I don't have nightmares, my thoughts aren't distressing.

[Talanic]

I hate going to bed. Everything just gets worse... So yeah, I'm scared to go to bed.

[swheaton]

My anxiety builds up at bedtime too. Racing heart beat, racing thoughts. I'm not sure why, I love sleep.

[TheatreKid]

I love sleep too. Had a nap this afternoon no problem. But at 11 PM, I lie down and all I get is racing heart.

It kind of started out as health anxiety. I was having health problems and was paranoid I was going to have a seizure and die in my sleep, even though there is absolutely no reason for that to happen. Now I have high blood pressure, so when my heart starts racing like that I get worried I'm going to have a heart attack or stroke, which makes the anxiety even worse.

[swheaton]

I sleep better in the daylight. I just started to think back and realize my anxiety about sleeping began two years before I left my ex husband.

[Twigs92]

My symptoms always get worse at bedtime, I think that's because it's the end of the day, I don't have as much to distract me and by that point normally if I want to sleep or not I'm tired anyway.

[BipolaRNurse]

Originally Posted by swheaton

My anxiety builds up at bedtime too. Racing heart beat, racing thoughts. I'm not sure why, I love sleep.

I have the very same issue, even though I love sleep and enjoy my big, comfortable bed. But I'll be fine all day, take my nighttime meds and be ready for bed, then the instant my head hits the pillow I am wide awake and can't shut my brain up. It's like everything that makes me anxious comes up when I'm trying to rest. I hate that.

[sweepy62]

I find the whole night time thing so overwhelming , since childhood . I find it to be like a punishment . Haven't had a nightmare in 3 days.

It's the whole ptsd thing.

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[Curiosity77]

I went to a presentation on treatment of insomnia by a pdoc who specializes in sleep disorders, and what i took away is that there really isn't much that works. There is all the sleep hygiene that we have probably all been taught, but it only works in people who are really motivated, which isn't most people. There's cbt for it, online program called cbt-i, and it's supposed to be good, but again only for people who are motivated. Then there's all the different meds, but most of them have a lot of side effects and don't work all that well anyway. The lecture was sponsored by the drug company that makes zolpidem, so the pdoc was really pushing that as the best solution, but it's a little hard to trust with the conflict of interest. She basically explained all of these things, but said a lot of the time they don't work and insomnia can be chronic and affect daytime functioning.

I used to be a total insomniac, and the only thing that worked was zopiclone (never tried zolpidem because we didn't have it yet in canada at the time). I sleep better as a side effect of saphris, but if i miss a dose i don't sleep at all. I wish i could have natural sleep.

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[icinggurl]

Wow I am definitely not alone with this! The only reason I sleep at all is because of the massive amount of meds I take at bedtime, but when I try to nap, I get the rapid pulse/hyperventilating thing. It sucks because I'm so groggy all day from the meds that I feel forced to nap - it just snowballs from there. My biggest issue is getting myself to take those night meds. When they start to kick in, I start to panic like I'm getting a lethal injection. Losing control of my body is terrifying which is what basically happens. I used to have the same reaction to anesthesia, but I've had so much of that, I learned to sort of enjoy the drunk feeling before I'm out for a procedure. So I delay and delay my night meds and now my nights and days are switched up badly. Also the later I stay up, the more manic and GREAT I feel, etc. It feels really out of control and hopeless to be honest.
thx for everyone's responses! I don't feel so alone now. Does anyone else have that kind of med panic stuff? It's hard to describe that part.......

[tc2012]

Originally Posted by icinggurl

I find going to bed at night terrifying and I don't even know what I'm scared of. Its not like I have lots of nightmares. I just can't figure out how to deal/cope with this problem, because everybody has to sleep. Anyone else deal with this?

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I am scared too at bedtime. It is because when I lay down, I will have to think about things. I have to pre-sleep, this means sleeping on the couch, so I can watch tv until I get very sleepy , then take Trazadone. I would never sleep without Trazadone.

[icinggurl]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

I find the whole night time thing so overwhelming , since childhood . I find it to be like a punishment . Haven't had a nightmare in 3 days.

It's the whole ptsd thing.

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I'm sorry about that Sounds like a really rough situation Not fair at all -

[icinggurl]

Originally Posted by tc2012

I am scared too at bedtime. It is because when I lay down, I will have to think about things. I have to pre-sleep, this means sleeping on the couch, so I can watch tv until I get very sleepy , then take Trazadone. I would never sleep without Trazadone.

I'm guessing that none of us would sleep without our meds and of course not sleeping only exacerbates our condition. No wonder we lose our minds

[Can-I-Say]

I find that the nighttime, particularly bedtime, is the time when my life slows down just enough to force the worst of my symptoms to the surface, like someone hit the floodlight switch.

I also often feel like it's the only chance I get on the clock NOT to be interrupted by other people, and a part of me craves that.

I could never in a million years set a bedtime for myself (i.e. mentally note, "Okay, I have to be up at 7:00am, so I'm going to go to bed at 12:30."), the mere thought of that is petrifying. I have a very difficult time spending the night with others (in relationships, etc.), and usually wind up more or less "passing out" in the middle of some activity, when exhaustion and medication finally mesh and take over.

"Lately, I'm not dreaming, so what's the point in sleeping? It's just that at night, I've got nowhere to hide." -JM

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by icinggurl

I find going to bed at night terrifying and I don't even know what I'm scared of. Its not like I have lots of nightmares. I just can't figure out how to deal/cope with this problem, because everybody has to sleep. Anyone else deal with this?

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I have a very difficult time going to bed because when my BP gets out of control I literally lose myself. I become this person I don't know and my behaviour can be outrageous, well in my eyes anyway and that's when the suicide attempts start. I don't want to go to sleep at night because I'm afraid I'll wake up and I won't be there

[Moreta]

I get really sleepy around 9 pm after taking my meds, but if I try to sleep my mind races and I have this feeling like I'm going to die in my sleep. I usually end up falling asleep on the couch around 11:30, then I finally wake up about 30 mins to an hour after that, then go to bed. I desperately need more sleep, so I can sleep off my meds, but it never works out. I take Prazosin for nightmares, but lately it doesn't seem to be working. I really do hate sleeping. If it wasn't for all the meds, I'd probably sleep less. Thankfully my pdoc gave me Provigil so I can stay awake during the day, from taking so many sedating drugs. I'm also taking Ambien, which isn't doing anything, so I'm not even sure why I take it. I take it around 6 pm and never fall asleep before 11:30.

[Blitter2014]

I hate sleep at the moment. My nightmares are so vivid and their impact on the next day so profound its hard to have enough energy left for that day. Combine that with insomnia. ..meaning 2-4 hours of intense dreaming then the rest of the night to analyze / drown out the voices....you know what.....its tiring!

Sleep yes. Dreams yes. But As for the rest.....stay outa my subconscious!

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I don't like going to sleep because I don't know what the next day will bring. Lately, my symptoms ease up in the evening.

[Blitter2014]

Sleep is scary if for no other reason it is you voluntarily surrendering to the total control of your unconscious mind.

A mind that is, at best, not functioning at peak efficiency!

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