[wachiki92]

Its been building up for about a week and today feels like the day. I've been keeping to myself listening to music at work. one because music helps me calm down and two because of all the irritating noises. the dish washer keeps keeping even more than usual and I came pretty close to kicking or hitting hit so I cranked the music up. I slammed the microwave shut because my headphones got caught in it. I aew a rolling cart over because it hit the back of my heel. I've almost thrown my phon.e several times. become very close to snapping at coworkers. including my supervisor. all before noon and I don't know how I'm going to make it through the rest of the day without a blow up.

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by wachiki92

Its been building up for about a week and today feels like the day. I've been keeping to myself listening to music at work. one because music helps me calm down and two because of all the irritating noises. the dish washer keeps keeping even more than usual and I came pretty close to kicking or hitting hit so I cranked the music up. I slammed the microwave shut because my headphones got caught in it. I aew a rolling cart over because it hit the back of my heel. I've almost thrown my phon.e several times. become very close to snapping at coworkers. including my supervisor. all before noon and I don't know how I'm going to make it through the rest of the day without a blow up.

I hear that. Almost punched a wall this morning but it wasn't my wall to punch. Maybe you can just say you're sick and get the hell out of there? I find I just have to completely remove myself or I end up getting myself in trouble.

[Standup2me]

I sometimes go into the washroom just to hide

It is quiet, and safe

[ExistingInChanges]

Originally Posted by wachiki92

Its been building up for about a week and today feels like the day. I've been keeping to myself listening to music at work. one because music helps me calm down and two because of all the irritating noises. the dish washer keeps keeping even more than usual and I came pretty close to kicking or hitting hit so I cranked the music up. I slammed the microwave shut because my headphones got caught in it. I aew a rolling cart over because it hit the back of my heel. I've almost thrown my phon.e several times. become very close to snapping at coworkers. including my supervisor. all before noon and I don't know how I'm going to make it through the rest of the day without a blow up.

Maybe it would help to draw or write or to look forward to treating yourself to something relaxing later. Like you can read or take a bath or something you have been wanting to do that calms you...gardening? Spending time with animals or meditating may work as well.

[BlackSheep79]

I went thru a manic phase for 4 months trying to find the right medication. During that period I went thru the same exact thing. I would be at work and certain noises and certain people's voices would make my blood boil. I would crank up my music to block everything out. I'm on intermittent FMLA and would have to stay home from work several times because I thought I would lose my job going off on someone at work. I can't even give you any advice on this, just that I can relate to what you are going thru. I finally found the right combo of meds and am doing so much better. Are you on any medications, therapy, or have anyone that is supportive?

BP 1-mixed episodes/OCD

Lamictal 400 mg
Haldol 3 mg
Klonopin 1.5 mg

[Nammu]

Oh, that irritability, such a fun time! Yep, been there, if you can you should tell them you are not feeling well and leave work. Much better to take a sick day than lose it at work. Sometimes doing something extremely physical has helped me but trying to hold it together for other people just seems to make it worse. It's no lie, you are not feeling well.

[wachiki92]

Originally Posted by BlackSheep79

I went thru a manic phase for 4 months trying to find the right medication. During that period I went thru the same exact thing. I would be at work and certain noises and certain people's voices would make my blood boil. I would crank up my music to block everything out. I'm on intermittent FMLA and would have to stay home from work several times because I thought I would lose my job going off on someone at work. I can't even give you any advice on this, just that I can relate to what you are going thru. I finally found the right combo of meds and am doing so much better. Are you on any medications, therapy, or have anyone that is supportive?

BP 1-mixed episodes/OCD

Lamictal 400 mg
Haldol 3 mg
Klonopin 1.5 mg

I'm currently on wellbutrin xl and trazodone for sleep. I've had psychiatrists try to put me on a mood stabilizer and one suggested abilify. but I've always been afraid of the side effects these can cause. I have talked to my current proc and she has me reading about a few meds to see what the side effect and such are. I just don't know if its worth it

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by wachiki92

I'm currently on wellbutrin xl and trazodone for sleep. I've had psychiatrists try to put me on a mood stabilizer and one suggested abilify. but I've always been afraid of the side effects these can cause. I have talked to my current proc and she has me reading about a few meds to see what the side effect and such are. I just don't know if its worth it

The Latuda I'm on has been totaly worth it. It helped the irritability a lot. I've had trouble with other mood stabilizers but this one was right for me.