[ferelpis]

Hey all,

after a hypomanic episode which costed me a small fortune, followed by a relatively stable phase... A trigger was enough for me, in order for a depression to be unleashed.

Everything seems to slow down, like a lot. I smoked a cigarette after 2 years of not smoking at all, knowing it does only harm. I don't feel like taking my dog out, every attempt to move seems and feels painful. I just want to fall asleep but even this seems difficult. And yes, crying too. You just need a trigger and you start falling waiting to crash down on earth; but you never do.

[BlackSheep79]

I'm going thru the exact same thing right now. I thought I was going thru a change because my memory starts to go so I thought it was a hypo-manic stage beginning and now I felt it this week and now today I'm in a deep depression. I went to work for some over-time and stayed just over an hour, I just couldn't do it. I want to just curl up in a ball and sleep but I can't sleep either. I feel so lonely right now, and my husband is at work. I don't even know what triggered it. I am usually going through hypo-mania and every now and then a small depression. I know what to usually look for when it is the hypo-mania. I am just so tired of going thru this over and over and over again, it's never-ending. I hope you feel better.

[ferelpis]

Originally Posted by BlackSheep79

I'm going thru the exact same thing right now. I thought I was going thru a change because my memory starts to go so I thought it was a hypo-manic stage beginning and now I felt it this week and now today I'm in a deep depression. I went to work for some over-time and stayed just over an hour, I just couldn't do it. I want to just curl up in a ball and sleep but I can't sleep either. I feel so lonely right now, and my husband is at work. I don't even know what triggered it. I am usually going through hypo-mania and every now and then a small depression. I know what to usually look for when it is the hypo-mania. I am just so tired of going thru this over and over and over again, it's never-ending. I hope you feel better.

I see. Well no, I don't, but thanks. And I have so much to do but I just can't which makes my mood even worse. I feel like numb, my head is so heavy it literally leans. I don't even have words to explain

[ferelpis]

And on top of all this, I took up so many classes while hypo, and now it feels like i can't even type stuff.

[BlackSheep79]

When I worked on my bachelors and masters degrees it was so hard to juggle when having these ups and downs. I had to take semesters off because of it, but you probably don't have that choice. All I can say is try and take it step by step, and I will be wishing you the best.

[ferelpis]

Originally Posted by BlackSheep79

When I worked on my bachelors and masters degrees it was so hard to juggle when having these ups and downs. I had to take semesters off because of it, but you probably don't have that choice. All I can say is try and take it step by step, and I will be wishing you the best.

I am trying but it is just beyond me. Have started having suicidal thoughts again. Well this is at least still under control and in a few days my mom will be here so it is gonna be ok, at least this part.. By ok I mean safe in a way.

[Fuzzybear]