[Side2Side]

Over the weekend I was incredibly hyped and feeling too positive, my gf told me I had went hypomanic which I refused to believe. As the week goes on I am constantly on my feet trying to get things done only for me to over think and get really stressed and too exhausted to perform the tasks which is driving me nuts coz I've started and need to keep going! And I keep getting distracted and starting something else, I've went from hyped up to wanting to cry because my body can't keep up with my brain. This is the first time I've felt I have identified being in a mixed episode (been up and down for about a week now) it's so weird being amped up but feeling like there is no point in the energy. I don't like this. At all.

I am on no meds at the moment and have stayed away from weed to ease the stress of my financial situation. I think this was unwise as my mind is left to wander and I don't think people are taking me too seriously when I tell them I'm having thoughts that make me feel connected to the spectral plain and that I'm a medium or some nonsense (by this I mean they think it's a case of don't be so silly but that's not easy). Been kinda left to put up with it myself which isn't easy because it's hard to not start believing these things when nobody wants to talk it through with you because they find it weird and think if I know it's real why is it a bother?
The answer because it just bloody is.
And the fact I'm irritable as hell does not help lol
This almost makes the solo depression seem not as bad lol.

[wing]

I know wht you mean that solo depression might be better. That's not true though, because depression never eases up, just gets worse. At least a mixed episode runs its course and fizzles out.

What you're describing sounds more like a full-blown pure mania to me, though. Can you get in to see a doctor? Do you want to?

[Side2Side]

Don't really want to go to the doc about it, don't feel it's there yet. My pdoc is on maternity leave, I see the replacement in a fortnight (this is the earliest I can be seen, not seen pdoc in weeks) my gp is terrible for mental health problems but I give him credit on physical ailments. I don't know if I'd agree on full blown mania, so I took the quiz and scored a 68 so you may be right on that one. I'm hoping it all passes as I have an interview for a college course on Monday though a bit of hypo may help me through it.

[pawn78]

You might need something to calm you down. If you can't get a prescription, can you get some cannabis to hold you over? If it helps, I mean. For some people it's an amazing medication, for others it can make mania worse and cause paranoia,

[Side2Side]

I can get cannabis tomorrow, it helps in any kind of mood just trying not to spend all my money on it as I got into the habit of doing it daily so have cut down to reduce spending, I was on diazepam for a few weeks but the doctor won't give me them anymore. I'm sure I can hold out until tomorrow, plus I have lots to do at the weekend which will keep me busy.

[pawn78]

I'm in the same boat. Cannabis helps my mood better than anything else, but damn it gets expensive!

[Skitz13]

I hear that!!!!