I'm tired

I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting this crap. I'm tired of the road blocks. I'm tired of trying everything I can to feel better and nothing works.

I'M TIRED OF BEING LITTLE MARY SUNSHINE!!!

I GIVE UP !!!!!!!!

Sometimes when we are just wore out trying to fight the current upstream its best to just allow yourself to float for a lil while and regain strenght and insite into just how to get back on track . A little Mindfulness goes a long way in times like these .

Plzsti, I know it is really a stuggle. It seems to just drain our strength and mental capacity for stress. Christina is right about taking time to float for a while. As we all know with bipolar tomorrow could be totally different. Hang in there.

May or may not help. If you like country music, listen to the moral of an early
90's tune by Mike Reid - Walk On Faith

I pulled it out of my head a few months ago. Only helps me for short spells, but it helps.

Thanks for that. It's a really good song but the River by Garth Brooks is my anthem. Most days it can pull me out of anything but not so much today

Well I guess all I can do is float because my strength is gone. I'm done. I have nothing left. Thanks

I know you're tired of it all. But don't give up.

It's the nature of the bipolar beast to feel depressed and hopeless, and to believe it will always feel this way. But then one day you'll wake up and it will feel like the fog has lifted.
I know it feels like this time the mood is permanent and things will never change. But they will. You'll be strong again someday.

Boy do I know what you mean!

This is exhaustion is exactly why I have stopped fighting my bipolar.

I just couldn't live with the steady stream of disappointment, exhaustion and hopelessness.

Since full frontal assault brought me nowhere, my new tactic is surfing...

I no longer view it as my enemy, its more of an appendage I never asked for, but can't remove. Kinda like what happens when 1 twin absorbs the other whilst in the womb, and is then born with left over parts from the twin who's no more...

Anyway, gawd I ramble.

Since I no longer fight it, I try to live with it in as much harmony as is humanly possible.

If I have the opportunity (privacy and time) I usually let the depression happen. I go with it so to speak. I cry, I curse and I yell. But most of all, I feel what my short circuiting brain is demanding I feel. Usually clears up the mood much faster (for me) than assaulting it.

Hypo I usually try and exaust it before it exhausts me...

Nowwww I'm not saying we should all just give in to our bipolar wants and go with every flow.

But what I am saying is, when its safe to do so, its ok to just be.

First of all "hugs". It is so tiring being sick. This is a disease. Every disease has its day. Doesnt matter what the illness is. It hurts, I understand. You want to give your brain a break.

Try to lay back in a quite room, close your eyes, and take a time out. Try not to think of anything, just be.

Hang in there, your doing great!

You are quite welcome, and thank you too.