[optimistic_dolphin]

i am wondering if this happens to everyone.

Psychosis isn't continuous. Like there will be episodes of various intensity. For me it's usually get worse at night. Sometimes I feel fine in the day then night time thoughts and stuff overwhelm me. Or sometimes i get sudden attack that comes and goes. Other times it stretches out and thoughts haunt me

share your experience here

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm still gettin used to psychosis being a part of my life. My first brush with it was last august, where I felt like another being was implanting thoughts that weren't my own in my head. I don't remember whether that was constant or not. The last unmedicated episode I had in April was pretty constant. Started with thinking my husband was controlling me with my medication. That would come up every time I had to take the pills. I would just get mad at him. When it devolved into complete paranoia it was come and go. I would be ok and then someone would look at me funny or something and then I would be a mess. It went on until I had a total meltdown and thought someone was trying to kill me but I couldn't figure out who.

Now with the help of medication I am mostly ok, but if I get very stressed out (ex panic attack) I will get a breakthrough paranoia attack or hallucination. So I understand what you mean that it's not necessarily constant.

[BipolaRNurse]

I don't have psychosis except during moderate-to-severe manic episodes, and even then it's not constant. It's worse at night, when I think I see lava creeping down my bedroom walls and hear classical harp music playing when the house is completely silent. I also become paranoid and think people are spying on me or trying to have me "put away". I'm even afraid to call my pdoc when I'm like this because I just know he's going to put me in the hospital, which in real life is silly because he works hard to keep me OUT.