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#1
Jul 15, 2014, 02:34 PM
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I feel awesome!!! Everything is bright and shiny and omg smelling I through the roof. I can smell the color green. It's cooled down today high only like low 70's. I want to go walk for hours and explore. And write about the trees that talk or go lay under the tall tree next to the house. I just want to be outside. The windows are open sunshine is blowing in. I don't want this feeling to go away. I feel beautiful. I feel magical. I feel everything, that's the only way to explain this. I feel like I'm plugged into the world. I feel like I need to become one with it. There is so much I want to do and be today. Mind you none of it had to do with work. It was all about me work makes someone else seem better than they are. I don't understand why no one recognizes I'm a very important part of work. I want to go shop for corsets. So much to do.
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#2
Jul 15, 2014, 03:37 PM
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I'm no expert but if I told my husband all this he would say I was manic. But enjoy the reasonable parts. Just have a safety net for the wilder parts.
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#3
Jul 15, 2014, 05:51 PM
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Oh that would not be good at all. I'm hoping I'm not full out. Never been there diagnosis wise. But then again no one around to tell me I am right now anyway. My Pdoc got a new job and the replacement hasn't appeared yet to fill his shoes. So I'm in limbo. I could call, but last time I did that she was les than helpful. Could be someone different because it's an on call Pdoc. Plus vacation from therapy 3 and half weeks. I feel like a kid who's got the house to themselves for the first time. I can't type as quick as my brain is going. I've got to start winding down. I'm supposed to go to bed in just over an hour, but I don't see that happening. Going to try yoga and meditation tonight. Hope I can control this train. If I can't work could turn ugly.
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#4
Jul 15, 2014, 06:06 PM
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Well... even if you're awake, keep your butt in bed for your normal sleep hours!
 I hope it stays manageable for you tigersassy!
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..." "I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am. |
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#5
Jul 15, 2014, 06:17 PM
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That's what I did the other night. Layed there staring at the wall fading in and out of waking without realizing which was which. Blasted boring.
Went for a walk with the wife. That was fun out in the gorgeous weather.
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#6
Jul 15, 2014, 06:18 PM
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Yeah... staying in bed all night long is boring as hell, but at least it gives the body a chance to lay down and get a biiiit of rest!
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..." "I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am. |
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#7
Jul 15, 2014, 06:34 PM
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"maybe a little hypo" sounds like a poor title of this thread.
More like, "really damn hypomanic... wow!"  We all tend to underestimate our mania, me included. I have learned to interpret, "maybe a little hypomania" as... "really hypomanic right now." and, "I am hypomanic, maybe even manic." as "Holy batsh!t Manic as hell right now!" 
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#8
Jul 15, 2014, 06:43 PM
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I really don't think it's "that" bad. Lol and the more I think about it the more I'm like saying that's just proving the point. Oh well... I'm not sure I know where my safety net is. I misplaced it after the last trapeze act. Lol. 15 mins to sleep and still haven't had dinner oops...
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PTSD possible bipolar Meds: propranalol 20mg 2x's(blood pressure), lamictal 300mg, seroquel 100mg, effexor 75mg, sprycel 100mg (CML, chronic myeloid leukemia), iron supplement, multivitamin |
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#9
Jul 15, 2014, 06:55 PM
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Super fast cycling BPD....so I get the mini version...several times a day..woo hoo!!!! 
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#10
Jul 15, 2014, 07:08 PM
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I also consider myself "maybe a little hypomanic" in the current phase I am in.
 ...Yet, 3 weeks ago I had casual sex with a stranger, I worked 60-80 hours/week for the last two weeks, I cut my leg open last week at work, got 6 stitches that night and went back to work the next day.... sleeping 4-6 hours/night until recently, and two nights ago I stabbed an intruding raccoon with a spear! 
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Jul 15, 2014, 07:18 PM
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The fact is, I really enjoy my mania... The only part I don't enjoy is if I start having delusions, or other symptoms of psychosis, and I haven't had any of those for years, and I have been more stable and happier than ever in my life since I started with medication and therapy.
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#12
Jul 15, 2014, 07:20 PM
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Sleep is going to be cut down... maybe 6-7 hours in bed....
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Jul 15, 2014, 07:23 PM
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There are so many "depression" topics here all the time, which I have difficulty relating to since I am mostly on the manic end. I like reading and partcipating in the MANIA topics, as i am an expert in that area.
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Jul 15, 2014, 07:26 PM
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..." "I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am. |
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Jul 15, 2014, 07:38 PM
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omg and I'm still laughing at your first post on this thread....complete with extreme excited smiley lol
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Jul 15, 2014, 07:59 PM
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 It is SOOOO TRUE. I have only been on the bipolar forum for a few months, and I have noticed this trend. People NEVER admit to being manic, and even when they are hypomanic (mild mania), they always seem to call it, "maybe a little hypo."Hell with that... I'm full on MANIC baby!  Admitting it is the first step to recovery....or some **** like that.
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Jul 16, 2014, 03:05 AM
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Yep bright and early was awake before alarm went off this morning didn't get settled into bed until almost 11. That was even after taking a melatonin. Hopefully work goes ok today, been fairly aggravated with it. To the point I punched a steel beam a few days ago. Need to keep myself in check. I can not lose my job over this. Hopefully my psych nurse gets a hold of me soon. We'll see. This has been going on for about a week now.
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Jul 16, 2014, 07:15 AM
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If you need to, call in for a sick day ok? No harm in doing that!!
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..." "I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am. |
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Jul 16, 2014, 08:42 AM
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Already at work now so I'd have to go home early, but I think the person I'm having issues with is off today (my store manager). I hope she is off or comes in late today because I really don't want to deal with her. Other than that absolutely fantastic. Bored with work can't focus ideas are pouring into my consciousness. I just want to do do do but not the stuff I have to do. Pretty sure this at least hypo, but the question now becomes is it because my AD or is it solely because of mood? Anyone else get random music lyrics that pop into head that have to do with conversations you're having? Me right now everything relates to a song. Back to work....
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Jul 16, 2014, 09:01 AM
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I definitely get the random snipits of songs... but they're completely random and possibly based more upon my thoughts... and have nothing whatsoever to do with anything going on around me!
I hope the person's not there today either
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..." "I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am. |
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Jul 16, 2014, 10:59 AM
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Sometimes they have nothing to do with the conversations but they bust out of my mouth of they do have to do with the conversation.
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Jul 16, 2014, 12:00 PM
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Fortunately mine never pop out of my mouth! I just sing away in my head and lose track of the conversation! hahaha.
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..." "I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am. |
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Jul 16, 2014, 12:09 PM
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Not me My filter has a tendency of disappearing not sure if it has anything to do with lack of sleep because it doesn't happen till about a week in.
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Jul 16, 2014, 02:36 PM
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Yay didn't have to deal with store manager at all. Feeling fantastic. Which is awesome considering I just got home from work. Got to find something to do. I'm bored out of my skull. Maybe I should clean my craft corner and work on some or writing, but I want to go outside for inspiration. So wish everyone was in the mood I'm in. I should really see my Pdoc while I'm like this, but then again it'll be a new one when I go that I've never met before so they may not see the difference unless the last guy took killer notes. But whatever. Who wants to go fly a kite with me or do cartwheels in the field or dance through small town america? My wife is being a bore. I need to have some fun and get out.
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#25
Jul 16, 2014, 02:45 PM
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oh boy
where is my mania...i get the depression part alright. the only problem is all my troubles start when i get manic. when i am depressed i lay in bed and behave myself
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