[winterglen]

I am so f***ing sick of the real world. All it does is give me situations that I fail again and again and again.

Why the f*** do I have to be in the real world anyway? I know, personal responsibility blah blah blah. There's just no point: I'm too stupid to learn not to make the same mistakes over and over.

I wish I could just retreat into my fantasy world where I'm not constantly getting in trouble because of my stupidity. I just want to give up my job, my schooling, and stay in my apartment and read. I want to have zero obligations so I never have to fail, disappoint, or embarrass anyone else ever again.

I just want to be someone else who's not so utterly repulsive and useless. Why is this such a hard thing to get?

[Skitz13]

Wow, you're pretty hard on yourself considering you had no control over getting this horrible illness but I do understand what you mean.

I'm in the exact same spot right now. Asking all the same questions but until my heart stops beating, I have to deal with it weather I like it or not.

[optimistic_dolphin]

i had wished i can forever live in my fantasy world only just recently. I am not sure if the world is still there, but it had given me troubles. For one, my world turned violent. And then for as long as your real body lives in the real world, one day you have to deal with everything in this real world. Sucks right?

With failure comes success. I was told one contrast in life makes the positive situation more enjoyable and apparent. You must care about failing, if not you wouldn't blame yourself so much. If you live in the fantasy world, you will think about failure somewhere along the way too. Because your idea of failure comes from your mind, not really from this world. If you don't care, it doesn't matter where you live. xoxo

take care. For me, it's easy to say, hard to apply

[venusss]

There are days when I relate. I just wanna become hyperspiritual and talk with my ghosts and spirits and not bother with the now.

[Fuzzybear]

[tamisomuch]

Better days will come soon. I felt the same few weeks ago. Please stay alive and fight this illness!! Every human soul is so special and valuable in God's eyes. Keep fighting! PM me if you need a friend to talk.

[Love&Toil]

Have you considered giving yourself a block of time to withdraw and gather your resources? Then carry on with the fight! As adults we have to keep trying whether we like it or not. Everyone gets sick and tired of things. Hang in there winterglen, it will get better.

[buzz bee]

First of all, sorry your having a bad day. Oh I have days like that. I just want to be left alone and just tend to myself. But only for a time. We are social animals. We have a need to be around one another.

Do you see a therapist? If not, Im telling you, it helps so much.

In the mean time, take a hot bath or shower. Put on a cozy something, pop some popcorn, sit down and watch some TV. Tomorrow will take care of itself.