[sassyandoutrageous]

This is my first post so hey.

I am used to sleeping with dudes left and right and love sex. Insatiable. Before medication I cheated all up, all over the place. I got medication 300 wellbutrin, 200 lamotrogene, .5 loranzpam, 10 mg propanolol, 20 mg ritalin. Haha got quite the assortment.

I started dated the guy of my dreams for six months. Faithful! Holla! I took myself out of situations where I could cheat, and made sure I dedicated more time to my friendships of the same sex and not men because I didn't trust myself.

I worked on a political campaign and spent a significant amount of time with my male coworker. My boyfriend during the day is always working, he is a neuroscientist so I can't talk to him because his mind is in the game and legit I can't distract him. This is difficult because emotionally, I'm needy (ish).

When he isn't available I text my coworker. I have fallen for my coworker and lust after him.

Normally, I can totally control myself, except a month ago I got Mirena and it totally ****ed with my medication (now it's out, but I'm still waiting for hormones to rebalance).

I cannot tell if I am being too needy, or my boyfriend isn't giving me the attention I need, if I am still recovering hormonally?

Normally I am very independent. I work 9-5 love my job, love coming home to my boyfriend, have a crazy awesome sex life, intellectually I am beyond stimulated (and oh my god I love it) ... but the impulse and craving to cheat is PAINFUL. Went out for drinks with my bf and coworker and some other coworkers, and I felt like I was swimming in my coworkers eyes haha legit I was getting so aroused.

Ugh, any insight? Anything? My mind is hazy, and I'm irrational.

[glok]

Welcome to the Community, sassyandoutrageous.

Maybe some insight here?

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I wish you well.

[Trippin2.0]

Well in all honesty I wouldn't know, never been in your shoes, but a few ideas come to mind.

You could create a manic check list.
If you're experiencing all your other classic symptoms of mania as well as this impulse to cheat, then you very well may be manic, and should alert your pdoc who may want to tweak your meds for now.

If you're not in the midst of a mood episode, you could either just need some intensive TLC from BF, be a serial cheater, or be a polygamist at heart...

Goodluck!!! and to our little crazy corner!

[pawn78]

Oh god, I can so relate sassy! I want to have multiple women all the time. For years and years I resisted, because I was married, and our sex life was great.
Well, this year the desire to be with other women became completely overwhelming and I cheated. I don't even regret it, it was so great!! I'll probably never be monogamous again.