[muller1209]

i think I have the right to be depressed. albeit in the short term.

my gf had been accusing me for months and months of cheating when in fact I was not. after over six months of accusations I made a fake confession. fast forward a few more months. I had to leave our apartment and my daughter. and low and be hold my lie doesn't hold up. so now my girlfriend is asking for the truth since she said what I told her makes no sense. so I let her know I was telling her the truth before. of course nothing makes sense because it was a lie.

she and I have been together for 3 years. I did mess up in the beginning of our relationship but has learned from my mistakes and have been completely faithful to her for over a year and a half.

i have lost everything. shes the woman i love and I have lost her. she has stayed home with the baby and has not gone back to work yet. I worked two jobs to support us. Im down to one job but working 55 to 60 hours a week. we are sharing a car, i pay for everything.

its been three weeks since i left the apartment. i pay for everything still. i dont have access to a car, and right now I dont have the option of buying one. i was forced to move back with my father. i ride my bike to work now. i sleep in the living room.

i miss my daughter. more then anything. I have been seeing her twice a week. she is the reason why i live. she is my purpose in life. her mother is amazing with her. and I do know my hard work is paying off even tho I cant be right there for her.

my depression is starting to kick in finally. its been almost a never ending argument over this. i have an appointment with my doctor set up already. i need to take care of the depression before it gets full blown. I was stable with elevated moods for a lot longer then normal. so now its my natural mood cycle mixed in with loosing everything.

she didnt believe the truth before and she sure as hell doesnt believe the truth now. i am really angry.

[Victoria'smom]

Can you ask for a fresh start? Take her on a date and slowly move from there? My husband and i have had to do this several times due to my particular brand of crazy but it's worked for us.

[newtothis31]

I'm sorry. That is really awesome that you provide for your daughter. It sounds like your significant other has an opportunity to learn more about your medical condition. Maybe you can look up bipolar support groups in your area- let her know of the times where she can have a safe place to share her experiences and learn from others. Or, perhaps you can set up a follow-up appointment with your pdoc and let your significant other ask questions & be better educated about your illness. Maybe your office has a nurse practitioner who can do so.

[muller1209]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Can you ask for a fresh start? Take her on a date and slowly move from there? My husband and i have had to do this several times due to my particular brand of crazy but it's worked for us.

you cant start over if the person wants awnsers and believes something is going on when in fact it isnt. thats why i lied and said i did cheat in the first place. i knew she would be hurt, but she would get over it and we could move on. but she still thinks i am cheating and I am not. so there is nothing I can really do at this point.

[~Christina]

I think you shot yourself in the foot by lying that you cheated when you didnt... Its hard to build trust when serious lies have happened .

My advice is get yourself together work on your depression and feeling better. Allow your gf time to consider her options. You also need time to think of your options.

Continue to see your daughter... Just be pleasant to your gf but dont try to discuss your relationship and the problems. You both need time to process it all.

Good luck

[muller1209]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I think you shot yourself in the foot by lying that you cheated when you didnt... Its hard to build trust when serious lies have happened .

My advice is get yourself together work on your depression and feeling better. Allow your gf time to consider her options. You also need time to think of your options.

Continue to see your daughter... Just be pleasant to your gf but dont try to discuss your relationship and the problems. You both need time to process it all.

Good luck

that is what i am going to do. i have doctor(s) appointments set up already.