[_mom2boys_]

When I look back on the past couple days I have been pretty stable. I have enough energy and motivation to get through the day, not feeling depressed but also not feeling high energy with racing thoughts. But my sleep is getting worse and worse. I'm having more troubles going to sleep over the past couple of days. In the morning, I start to get anxious thinking about the day ahead and what all I need to accomplish but since Friday my husband has been home with me so he's been keeping me on a schedule and we've been busy with the kids. I just keep feeling like every morning I wake up I'm going to be manic. I can't explain it, I'm just feeling borderline. Does this make sense? Does anybody else get this feeling or am I just letting my anxiety get the best of me?

[Love&Toil]

Many members here have expressed awareness of shifts in their mood and have learned to recognize signs that mean they are going to have a switch.

Have you been fully manic before? I hope you don't mind me asking. My understanding is with bipolar 2 we usually have depression and hypomania, not full mania. I'm just trying to gain a better understanding of your situation by asking.

I hope your anxiety and edginess subside so you get some more peaceful sleep.

[_mom2boys_]

Not fully manic, no. I guess I should say that I'm afraid when I wake up I'll be hypomanic. This morning I definitely had the racing thoughts, fast talking, and the overwhelming need to get everything done at once. My husband was with me so I verbalized everything to him and he pretty much said "No, you aren't going to do all that. We are are going to do this, this, and this." He left to run a quick errand and I almost had this "sneaky" feeling, like oh good, he's gone. Now I can get some stuff down. So I tried to get a few tasks done before he got home and when he saw he wasn't mad, but basically just said, "Ok, sit down now and relax. You've finished and it's over." He took over from there.

While I feel this way I know, in the back of my mind, that I "shouldn't" be doing this. But I can't control it. Once he made me sit down and relax, I was fine. We had a good rest of the night. Tomorrow he goes back to work so I'm really worried what tomorrow will be like.