[FrozenYogurt]

This morning I screamed at my girlfriend and was basically being an a-hole in general. It was so out of character of me. I can hardly remember what happened or what we were fighting about. The whole incident seems like a blur; like I wasn't in my body.

I had math class today and failed a big quiz. After that, something in me just clicked. On the drive home, I was incredibly tempted to run my car off the highway. But then 30 minutes later, I'm sitting down and doing homework and I suddenly felt better. Elated, joyful, and I just wanted to tackle every project I have going on.

These are just examples. I'm feeling manic tonight. I don't want to sleep. I'm thinking of pulling an all-nighter and get all my homework done. I don't work or class tomorrow, so tomorrow I'll just keep myself occupied and fall asleep at an appropriate time.

And sometimes, I just have no interest in anything. There are days when I don't even want to get out of bed. I would avoid going out with friends and be short with my girlfriend. I don't know if I'm bipolar, but I certainly change moods at the drop of a hat, and make terrible decisions.

[Tucson]

Sounds like some traits of Borderline Personality Disorder. I am no doctor. If this continues to significantly impact your life, I would go and see a professional. FWIW

[Justugh]

STOP CHECK UR SELF IN TO THE HOSPITAL

what u have listed u are on and what u just wrote out ...........something is majoraly off

u need to be seen by a doctor now to ensure does not happen worst the next time .......pulling a all nighter NO NO NO your brain needs time to sleep and reset the lvls are off

go to the hospital

[FrozenYogurt]

I can't just get up and go to the hospital. I don't think it's serious enough to go to that extreme. Inside I know I won't hurt myself, but the thoughts are so alluring. I thought the gabapentin was stabilizing my mood, but apparently not enough. I feel so weird. It's a struggle every day. I feel like I'm just a defective person.

[Victoria'smom]

Can you call your Dr tomorrow? Or go to a walk in clinic in the morning? Even if you don't sleep lay down and pretend to until your normal alarm goes off.

[FrozenYogurt]

Okay, I'm in bed, and I'm going to attempt to fall asleep. I actually scheduled an appointment for a therapist. I think I'll be alright until then.

[Victoria'smom]

When is the appointment?

[sui generis]

A misconception I keep seeing about bipolar is that it's a quick switch in mood from one extreme to another that can happen within a day. And while that can certainly happen if you have bipolar that's not part of the criteria for it. There would have to be evidence of previous (hypo)manic and depressive episodes that have lasted a certain amount of time (and other crap, you can look up the criteria for bipolar on google).

Look at your past history with mood episodes and see what you can find there. I don't sense borderline from your post like another poster mentioned as it doesn't seem like you're being triggered by anything in particular. When did this start happening by the way?

[Justugh]

just know at any time u can walk into a hospital and have a pdoc look at yah

by all means if u have something set up and u think u can make until then go for it

just sleep what u were writing is not a good thing anger out burst and lost of time ....those are 2 things that should never mix........

[Crazy Hitch]

Could be a number of factors causing this.

Best you get a professional evaluation done as no one here can really offer advice as to what kind of diagnosis you may or may not have on the basis of what you've written. A trained mental health professional would need to ask you a lot more questions.

Be safe.

[ozzy1313]

Who prescribes all the meds you are on? What have they dx you as?

Hope today is better for you

[venusss]

You seem to be on lot of uppers. I would reevaluate your medication coctail if i were you.

[Sprite22]

I needed meds to kick the insomnia. If you keep having symptoms I would talk to the doc.

[Disorder7]

Obviously, you need to see a doctor. I don't think anyone of us can accurately diagnose you.
I will say most bipolar people don't cycle in and out of moods within 30 minutes. Although there are some rapid cyclers out there.
Our moods are more tied to our energy levels, not stuff happening to us.

A lot of people will disagree with me, but I think you sound more borderline personality disorder. You are reacting to things, and your moods tend to change quickly throughout the day. That's a personality disorder and usually responds better to therapy than meds.

Again, I'm not a doctor. I'm just giving you my opinion because you asked.
Take care.