How idiotic is this?

OK, so I'm starting to think the addition of Wellbutrin is putting me into hypomania. I slept like crap last night and I feel awake and alive. And being aware of this myself, what do I do?

I end up racing this guy about a block away from the police station. It was a left turn lane, with two lanes, outside lane has to merge shortly after the turn. I was in the left lane waiting, and people start pulling up behind me, and then all of the sudden, he is there in the right, and just that fact alone already pissed me off.

I flipped my gearbox into manual mode and watched the cross traffic light as it turned to yellow then red, then "screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeech!" I slid a little, but the traction control kept me in line, as I knew it would. Sure enough he was trying to out gun me and cut in front, but he had no chance.

I slowed down to turn into my work parking lot and he waved at me as I turned off. I was filled with adrenaline rush at first, but then just moments later I realize, how stupid is that?

Yes, my car is capable, yes I am a good driver, but still...it is so stupid. And being aware of possibly being hypomanic, why wouldn't I have kept that in mind?

Had I been caught, it would have been 30mph over the limit, and probably a racing charge, which is no joke.

So...so...stupid.

Pughead,

You might want to call your p-doc right away. Wellbutrin (or anti-depressants in general) have been known to have that effect.

Never mind the racing charge-- it's not worth risking your life.

Stay safe,

Petunia

Sounds like the Wellbutrin has kicked you into high gear. I'd consult the doc and get off that before you start drag racing to work anymore. Every AD I've ever tried has made me manic. Gotta love that feeling though. It's addictive, I think - for me anyway. For everyone else it's feeling great...too bad for us bipolar's it's a pathology.

I'd shift things down a notch if I were you. Stay away from everything that fuels the fire and keep telling yourself everything is calm and serene. And if that works, then great cause it's never worked for me. Nothing like riding a metaphor to pick you up in the afternoon

Good luck.

Well, the whole reason I was put on wellbutrin is because my pdoc wanted to speed me up...she is really caught up on this.

She thinks I am slow and tired and therefore very depressed. I was never really tired, I just had a really bad cold the first time I saw her. I may take longer than others to collect my thoughts before I speak, but that's just my personality; I'm not "slow". So I think it's a mistake.

(((Pughead)))

The main thing I do when I am hypomanic is shoot my mouth off and take on all these things to do. So then when the depression sets back in --and it is usually depression--I have very rarely felt "normal"-- I am very embarrassed about a lot of the things I said and deeply chagrined about having to back out of commitments I made. It really sucks.

Please be careful. I hope you will talk to your pdoc.

(((Pughead))))

Take care,

Meta

Pdoc is on vacation, but will talk to T in about 30 minutes.

As always thanks to everyone for your support!