[vjdragonfly]

My mood has been rather erratic as of late. Depressed, then extremely wonderful, talkative then silent, angry, lonely, lost, etc. Right now I feel at two opposite ends. I'm extremely restless with my anxiety sky rocketing. Having a very difficult time sitting still, if at all. Yet I can't stay occupied, things I like to do are not holding my interest. I feel out of sorts, moody. Can't muster the energy to do anything but going out of my mind with nothing to do. Feel like I'm going out of my mind . . .

[tipper1492]

Have you seen a doctor? I see a psychiatrist which has saved my life to where my bipolar was beginning to ruin it for me and my family. Do you take any medications from a doctor? Not the self medication like alcohol.

[cmorales]

I know exactly what you are going through. I used to mix like that all the time. (Though now my meds have me relatively stable.) I agree with Tipper. Stay away from self-medicating as this particular state will only worsen to an extreme extent if you do that. Unfortunately I cannot offer any real good advice to make help make it go away other than seeing a pdoc (if possible). I used to have to just let it run its course or wait until the energy left me enough to where I would fall asleep (often on the floor or wherever the pacing had led me). That is no fun. But we're all here if you just need to vent or whatever.

Actually, I can offer this advice (as silly or pointless as it may be): invest in a punching bag (again, if possible) even just a small one... or one of those inflatable punch toys. Sometimes letting out that agitation physically helps, if even only a little bit - but obviously you don't want to hurt anyone or destroy your stuff. (Of course this will only be good for when your irritability thrusts you into action as opposed to being inactive.) When I was in high school, my parents were in denial about my mental state, so a psychiatrist was out of the question, but they got me a punching bag and it helped get me through a lot of these mixed episodes.

[~Christina]

Ugh thats a mixed episode they are just pure hell .. Please get in touch with your Pdoc ASAP ..

[vjdragonfly]

Thanks all, I was kinda thinking it might be a mixed episode, but haven't really wanted to to tell myself so. I have been on a wonderful cocktail for the last 2 years and I am afraid if they change it I might regress (and it has been a GOOD two years up to here recently). I guess I need to force myself to call my pdoc tomorrow *sigh*. Thanks again.

[pawn78]

a mixed episode is what finally made me break down and see a doctor... I coped for years and years without one. I was so irritable and short-tempered, it was awful. I was using Cannabis to self-medicate, which worked well, but wasn't good enough. Lamictal straightened my mixed episode out very effectively. (though it was very trying to wait patiently until i finally got up to 200 mg)

[vjdragonfly]

Originally Posted by pawn78

a mixed episode is what finally made me break down and see a doctor... I coped for years and years without one. I was so irritable and short-tempered, it was awful. I was using Cannabis to self-medicate, which worked well, but wasn't good enough. Lamictal straightened my mixed episode out very effectively. (though it was very trying to wait patiently until i finally got up to 200 mg)

I take lamictal, but only 100mg, maybe I just need an increase, no knew meds, whew . . .

[pawn78]

100 mg didn't do squat for me. 200 was ok, 300 is ...