[psychc]

Hi,
I just met my supervisor at a meeting and he looked down and quickly escaped after a very quick and uncomfortable hello.

Then I remembered my non-stop, angry 'at the system' rant when I saw him last... I was unwell... I fear that if I continue losing control of my mouth, I will lose my job...

Hate that I spent months re-building bridges I broke while unwell.
I cannot even explain it at work: "sorry, I was manic." ( :

Arghhh frustrated! How to fix what's broken and avoid future mishaps???

[Angry1541]

Hmm....well you could pull your supe aside and try to explain it in the lightest possible manner...you don't have to go into bipolar, but you can say you have been dealing some serious stress at home or something along those lines.

Angry1541 has great advice!

As far as avoiding future mishaps:
This may seem rather simplistic, but it helps me: I remember what I was taught as a child...
It goes like this: IF I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING NICE TO SAY, DON'T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL. Those are good words to live by, no matter how out-of-control you feel.
If I need to confront somebody because they offended me, I try to be civil.
Yes, it is easier said than done, but I must be kind, reasonable and civil or face very painful consequences. It's a matter of thinking before we act.
I feel for you. My tongue is more dangerous than a nuclear bomb.

[StayinAlive]

Originally Posted by Angry1541

Hmm....well you could pull your supe aside and try to explain it in the lightest possible manner...you don't have to go into bipolar, but you can say you have been dealing some serious stress at home or something along those lines.

I agree with this advice. I actually supervise people (snort! ) and it makes sense to address this in some way, and maybe let your supervisor know you have taken steps to deal with the stress. More or less detail, as you think appropriate based on your relationship.

[psychc]

so embarrassed and angry with myself about it... the inner voice that tells me: "shut up!!!" seems to be missing when I get high.

[Bipolarchic14]

I would propbably start looking for a new/better job. When I am comfortable, I have less desire to move, even for advancement. Last episode I had, this is what I did. Now I make twice as much. For me it was severe depression, not the manic side but I think my paranoia would bother me too much. I would not bring up the previous issue but if he does you can explain you were going through a rough time in your life. I would not mention being Bipolar. It has such a stigma attached to it and it is not his business.