[inflammable]

I've been dealing with suicidal urges, off and on (mostly on) since March of this year. I've been in the hospital, in a PHP, in and out of work. I have a full-time job in a field I love, and just recently started grad school in my field as well. I have a lot going for me, like a supportive boyfriend and great friends. But none of that seems to matter. It's an unreal drive toward destruction. I made a serious attempt a few months ago, and a few other near attempts since. I just don't see how I can possibly last much longer. I need help and I don't know what to do.

[HALLIEBETH87]

You're here and we care about you. I think most of us can certainly relate! Do you have a doctor you see or someone in your life you trust?

[lilypup]

I am sorry you feel so bad. I have been there. It WILL get better. Keep talking to your friends.

[tipper1492]

My God, I hope more people here, with knowledge with what you are dealing with, give you help full tips. I see you posted yesterday, and you need help NOW! You need a doctor of the right kind you can trust.

[~Christina]

How are you feeling today ?

[Hottiedepressed]

Sorry, I'd get into a doc and see about getting on a anti-depressant! Hope you feel better!

[Manic Trance]

Originally Posted by inflammable

I've been dealing with suicidal urges, off and on (mostly on) since March of this year. I've been in the hospital, in a PHP, in and out of work. I have a full-time job in a field I love, and just recently started grad school in my field as well. I have a lot going for me, like a supportive boyfriend and great friends. But none of that seems to matter. It's an unreal drive toward destruction. I made a serious attempt a few months ago, and a few other near attempts since. I just don't see how I can possibly last much longer. I need help and I don't know what to do.

I find that talking to people on this platform is really helpful. Also reading other people's accounts. Some times there are people on the other end of what you are dealing with and it is good to know that it will end and you will feel better again. If you want to talk I will talk to you. You can message me or keep writing in on this thread.

[youzou]

How are you today?

[HALLIEBETH87]

Hanging in there?

[Disorder7]

Are you doing okay today?

If you have a pdoc, who knows you've been contemplating suicide since March, and he/she has yet to correct this problem.....then you need a new doctor. Fast.

Your brain is lying to you. What you're feeling is a symptom of your illness. In reality, you have lots to live for and great times ahead.

Not all doctors are created equal. Please find one who will actually help you.