[Angry1541]

So, I need help -- No, I am not going to attempt suicide, but!!! Periodically I have these mental fantasies when drive about being run off the road and either very badly injured or killed in the crash - or intentionally causing the crash.

I never have any fantasy of overdosing or using anything other method of dying, just a car crash....would this be SI?

[Victoria'smom]

Yes I feel it is best thing to do is take public transportation if you can.

[Angry1541]

No, I never really would do it, I just have these mental flashes...only ever told my wife about this -- I wouldn't ever do it, (cuz I don't want to feel the physical pain), but the idea is there....if that makes sense? I don't how else to explain that.

[wotchermuggle]

This is really common. A lot of people think about driving their car off the road or into someone.

[Angry1541]

So not really considered SI?

[BipolaRNurse]

It's a form of it, although sometimes those thoughts can come along even when we're OK otherwise. I have them too from time to time, even though I probably would never act on them. Besides, I'm too chicken.....with my luck, I'd crash my car and live, only to wind up paralyzed in a nursing home and being turned every 2 hours, tube fed, maybe even on a ventilator. No thanks, I'll take my chances with pills if I ever get to that point of no return, which I hope I won't.

[Victoria'smom]

I didn't mean you'd act on it but they can get really destracting.

[Angry1541]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I didn't mean you'd act on it but they can get really destracting.

Right --

[HALLIEBETH87]

Ive had this for years. Mostly thoughts of running into semi trucks. Its common I think..

[Curiosity77]

It sounds more like intrusive thoughts than regular suicidal ideation.

[lilypup]

I always want to run into the canal. I think it is "light" SI.

[Arduous]

Originally Posted by Angry1541

t the idea is there....if that makes sense? I don't how else to explain that.

Is it like someone else is in your head telling you to do it?
Here lately I've been getting those. It's like a thought just pops right into my head, out of nowhere and says "Hey, you know what you should do?"
Then after the thought pops in I start to think of the whole scene in my head and what all would happen... so on so forth. Don't wanna get too deep into it.
I told my therapist about it & he said they are intrusive thoughts. It's out of character for me because no matter how crappy my life is at that moment it's just simply not something I would ever do.
But... the thoughts are really distracting and it's like something is trying to tempt me. Actually pretty scary. I love my life.... ups, downs & all.

[~Christina]

Sounds like intrusive thoughts .. regardless of the "label" Its best to work with a therapist to find out if there is particular reason for the ideas or if they are just your unique brand of Bipolar ..

I have them all the time .. its just a thought and I look at it and self ground and go about my day.

Good luck

I think it is a mild form of suicide ideation. When I get depressed, I just want to be gone. Not kill myself, per se, just not exist.

[Hack Jockey]

I fantasize about crashing my truck into a sturdy building or parked cars sometimes.
I worry that I would survive.

I feel that these are intrusive thoughts and worry that they could intensify to the point that I may act on them. I hear voices and feel that this is different, they tell me to self injure or kill myself but I can usually deflect them easily.

I hesitate to talk to my therapist about this out of fear of being hospitalized.
I don't think it's serious now, but I recognize the potential of it becoming very serious. I guess, now that I think about it, that the smart move is to tell her about it when I see her Wed.. I hope I don't wind up in the hospital again.

[kf031980]

I don't think labeling these thoughts matters but being aware that they are not healthy is the most important thing!

[venusss]

I think intrusive thoughts are pretty common, even iwth normals

[CozyMellie]

I fantasize about that too sometimes...just a hypothetical "what if...." i wouldn't do it. I think it's common too.